PureWitness00
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- Feb 7, 2018
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Straight to the point: I have serious ADD and attention issues. Also, I have a severe trauama based anxiety disorder that has been misdiagnosed by multiple doctors, often as psychosis, and because of that I have been given inappropriate medicines for years, which have caused de-humanizing side effects. I have tried 17 different antipsychotics. I have tried 6 different SSRIs. Neither of these types of medicines have helped. I've also tried many benzos including xanax, ativan, clonazepam, diazepam, and a few thianobenzodiazepines such as etizolam - all of which have been tremendously beneficial in a short term sense. I refuse to use anything as far as amphetamines or methamphetamines are concerned for fairly obvious reasons. Modafinil, and other nootropics have been useful for motivation and even some of them have helped with anxiety.
Now, I need to make this clear - over the 5 years I've had said issues, I have discovered transformative practices from hindu and buddhist traditions that have repeatedly proven to make my symptoms vanish. I am incapable of doing these practices if I am in a state of panic, which is most of the time. And when I'm not panicking I'm usually too exhausted to do anything at all. The attention issues make this situation far more complicated...
I'm 24 years old and I am unable to work or take care of myself. I am frequently prone to physical illness as my immune system is shot from so many different factors -sleep deprivation, chronic stress, hypertension, etc.. I am lucky my mother is temporarily helping me out after she found out I was sleeping in bathrooms in 34 degree weather for days on end. Her patience is wearing thin as the panic attacks are taking a toll on her life, her free time, and so on.
I am looking for a plan to get temporarily stabilized so I can focus all of my energy on mastering these practices. The ideal goal of them is to master the precision and smoothness of my breathing to make staying out of fight or flight, or stay in the parasympathetic nervous system a deeply ingrained habit.
I have access to 200,000 dollars and I am using that money to get on my feet. That can include nootropics, supplements, benzos, or whatever is needed. Then I am going straight back to work, school, etc.
What is a good reigmen of medicine I can take on to meet these needs? i.e. 1 mg xanax + 50 mg modafinil mon-wed. thursday 100 mg modafinil friday 200 mg modafinil saturday-sunday 2 mg. etizolam
Any help appreciated
-pure witness
Now, I need to make this clear - over the 5 years I've had said issues, I have discovered transformative practices from hindu and buddhist traditions that have repeatedly proven to make my symptoms vanish. I am incapable of doing these practices if I am in a state of panic, which is most of the time. And when I'm not panicking I'm usually too exhausted to do anything at all. The attention issues make this situation far more complicated...
I'm 24 years old and I am unable to work or take care of myself. I am frequently prone to physical illness as my immune system is shot from so many different factors -sleep deprivation, chronic stress, hypertension, etc.. I am lucky my mother is temporarily helping me out after she found out I was sleeping in bathrooms in 34 degree weather for days on end. Her patience is wearing thin as the panic attacks are taking a toll on her life, her free time, and so on.
I am looking for a plan to get temporarily stabilized so I can focus all of my energy on mastering these practices. The ideal goal of them is to master the precision and smoothness of my breathing to make staying out of fight or flight, or stay in the parasympathetic nervous system a deeply ingrained habit.
I have access to 200,000 dollars and I am using that money to get on my feet. That can include nootropics, supplements, benzos, or whatever is needed. Then I am going straight back to work, school, etc.
What is a good reigmen of medicine I can take on to meet these needs? i.e. 1 mg xanax + 50 mg modafinil mon-wed. thursday 100 mg modafinil friday 200 mg modafinil saturday-sunday 2 mg. etizolam
Any help appreciated
-pure witness