Captain.Heroin
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you should quit cigarettes, as most people end up dying prematurely from their tobacco use. congrats on your sobriety though.
you should quit cigarettes, as most people end up dying prematurely from their tobacco use. congrats on your sobriety though.
I've walked away from some of the hardest drugs known to man, but cigarettes. My God this is addicting. I'm gonna try again as soon as I get used to this no Cannabis thing.
Just realized it's three weeks AF today.
Hello Congrats everyone who is fighting the good fight ! I still have not quit but Im staying low on my usage . I need to figure out why exactly I need this drug to be happy and once that is identified I feel like that will help me quit finally. I been thinking about going to a NA meeting but I dont want to see anyone I know there , still ashamed and I live in a small state so the likelyhood of seeing someone I know or hubby knows is high . But blue light gives a lot of support for now . I like to watch withdraw journeys on you tube; been following this girl called defineandi , anyone know if she is on blue light ? ( I love withdraw videos because you see the people at their worst then a week later they are better , gives me hope I guess)
I'm not sure what's changed in the past couple days but I've been feeling really lonely and having a lot of deep, racing thoughts. The past two nights I've tried to lay down to sleep, my mind starts doing all this analyzing and rumination about recent experiences. I got up and went to a meeting + fellowship dinner last night when it started to happen and felt better later on, but now I'm sitting here at home feeling miserable. I guess I feel pretty disconnected from my emotions, actually. Like there's some big undercurrent of sadness and despair that I'm having trouble getting over or even starting to process.
Thank you Sim. We can do this.hell fuckin yeah!
simco said:At aihfl's suggestion, I spent some time watching the olympics last night. Got to see the very exciting slopestyle competition. Definitely a nice break from the downer that is the experience of being alone with myself these days.
I'm sorry to hear all this, GK. I totally identify, though (for whatever that's worth )...those kinds of under-the-surface, tectonic emotions can be profoundly upsetting, even if we're not able to identify them.
Hitting that meeting sounds like it was a good move. Those little decisions to do something to take care of ourselves...that's a huge part of making progress in murky situations.
Best luck. Sending you good vibes.
47 days sober wooowww!!
47 days sober wooowww!!
I wish iboga was legal in the US