Mommadukes
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jan 23, 2018
- Messages
- 4
Hi I am new to the group. I have some questions. First I'll give a quick intro. I was with my boyfriend for 9 years. We were a very in love couple. He started using meth 6 months ago and it has completely destroyed me. I have never done drugs, but I am a nurse so I understand addiction. This is not my first go-around with him and drug use but this is the second time he has gotten on Meth and this is the worst he has ever been. I have kicked him out of our house. He is 39 and I am 43. He almost immediately started dating a 24 year old meth addict and they moved in together. I'm so hurt by all of this. How do I move on? He has kept in contact with me and tells me that he still loves me and he in my opinion is trying the back and forth thing but I am not having it. I let him come back one time even after all of this because he said he wanted to go to rehab only for him to start running the streets again and I immediately kicked him back out and will not put up with it. I've never been this hurt in my life. Even in the past when I kicked him out he never started dating anyone or anything like that. I was completely in shock and devastated by all of this. We have been broken up over 2 months and I still cry every day. It's like I don't even know him anymore. That sweet loving man is gone. How do I get over this? It is like he took all of that attention that he used to give to me and threw it right into this girl and this lifestyle and these drugs and. Deeply hurt me even though I don't require a lot of attention. I don't understand why I'm struggling so much.