amediocrity
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Mar 30, 2016
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- 43
I'm sorry this is brief, but I typed out a huge background to my situation and my computer decided to freeze. I'm feeling so angry right now as it is, I had a minor breakdown over it, because I just need help and I can't think straight.
I have binged on codeine on four days in the last two weeks. I had a year clean time. I can't do this again. I stopped going to meetings a while back, and I had a lot of stuff happen that caused stress and upset in recent months. So I guess I should have seen this coming.
long and short of it is I plan on throwing away what I have left tomorrow. What should I expect? Any physical WDs likely, or am I just looking at the mental side of things? Any tips on controlling the cravings? Last time I quit I obviously made it to a year and I was at my lowest point so quitting was kind of the only way I could go other than dying. Now it seems in some ways more difficult because I have been using again for such a short time.
I am just so concerned because my mental health has suffered hugely from this setback, I am so overwhelmingly angry and disappointed in myself.
Please if anyone has experience of binging after a relatively long period of clean time, please advise me on what to expect (I understand it will be different for everyone but a relative estimation would be much appreciated).
im sorry if I come across as a whiny brat, I'm just frightened about how much anger I have suddenly from this relatively minor slip. It feels more like relapse. And that scares the hell out of me.
thank you for your time
I have binged on codeine on four days in the last two weeks. I had a year clean time. I can't do this again. I stopped going to meetings a while back, and I had a lot of stuff happen that caused stress and upset in recent months. So I guess I should have seen this coming.
long and short of it is I plan on throwing away what I have left tomorrow. What should I expect? Any physical WDs likely, or am I just looking at the mental side of things? Any tips on controlling the cravings? Last time I quit I obviously made it to a year and I was at my lowest point so quitting was kind of the only way I could go other than dying. Now it seems in some ways more difficult because I have been using again for such a short time.
I am just so concerned because my mental health has suffered hugely from this setback, I am so overwhelmingly angry and disappointed in myself.
Please if anyone has experience of binging after a relatively long period of clean time, please advise me on what to expect (I understand it will be different for everyone but a relative estimation would be much appreciated).
im sorry if I come across as a whiny brat, I'm just frightened about how much anger I have suddenly from this relatively minor slip. It feels more like relapse. And that scares the hell out of me.
thank you for your time