hello.
So I am a long time opiate abuser. I did 8 years on the methadone clinic and successful tapered off. After being clean for several years, i let the stress of my job break me and started dabbling with heroin again
For 4 months i would binge and then take tiny amounts of suboxone on the off days. A few times i tried to stop and had put ten solid days together. The subs worked great, never felt that bad. I am able to work and all that.
However, now the bupe doesnt seem to hold me. I have decided enough is enough but my past two attempts, i have not been able to get passed day two! I am freaking out and so scared now.
I wait 24 to 36 hours to take the subs. I take 2 to 4 mgs. They seem to help my stomach but OMG the cold sweats are unbearable! My body simply cannot regulate its temperature. Everyone at work kept asking me whats wrong! I'm pale and just cannot even function. Both these recent times i have cracked and got heroin. The subs blocked me from feeling anything but the cold sweats went away and i could relax a little bit.
I don't understand what is happening. It used to work great! Did i screw up by going back and forth between subs and dope so many times? I dont know what to do and am so scared. I don't want to go back to the methadone clinic and get trapped there again.
Please help! any advice would be greatly appreciated!!!!!!
So I am a long time opiate abuser. I did 8 years on the methadone clinic and successful tapered off. After being clean for several years, i let the stress of my job break me and started dabbling with heroin again
For 4 months i would binge and then take tiny amounts of suboxone on the off days. A few times i tried to stop and had put ten solid days together. The subs worked great, never felt that bad. I am able to work and all that.
However, now the bupe doesnt seem to hold me. I have decided enough is enough but my past two attempts, i have not been able to get passed day two! I am freaking out and so scared now.
I wait 24 to 36 hours to take the subs. I take 2 to 4 mgs. They seem to help my stomach but OMG the cold sweats are unbearable! My body simply cannot regulate its temperature. Everyone at work kept asking me whats wrong! I'm pale and just cannot even function. Both these recent times i have cracked and got heroin. The subs blocked me from feeling anything but the cold sweats went away and i could relax a little bit.
I don't understand what is happening. It used to work great! Did i screw up by going back and forth between subs and dope so many times? I dont know what to do and am so scared. I don't want to go back to the methadone clinic and get trapped there again.
Please help! any advice would be greatly appreciated!!!!!!