The Refuge Recovery meeting was great. I was having issues with work so it was nice to just sit quietly, meditate, and empty my mind, although the tiny room was completely packed and it got uncomfortably warm. I listen to the words in the guided meditation, but I don't focus on the meaning of the words, I just listen to them, if that makes any sense. My book should be in today's mail, yay! Also, there was very little overlap between the AA and RR crowds. Lots of faces I didn't recognize.
10, what's the word on St. Jude's? My psychiatrist referred me to a very heavy duty psychologist who has been practicing for many years. I'm going to have neuro-psych testing done at the end of the month and perhaps then I can assess whether or not outpatient therapy with him would be effective. I have options, which is always nice, and even if I stayed here in Florida, my ex wife and I talk daily and I have a great support network of friends from AA and RR.
I apologize for the whiney tone of my last post. Addicts don't particularly like being told what to do. If it wasn't for AA and RR, I'd probably be passed out on my couch and my house would still be trashed.
Forgot to mention I'm looking forward to seeing Winchester tomorrow with my ex. I toured the actual house in San Jose back in 2008. It's a weird, creepy place for sure.