Xperiment626
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Hi all, I'm new here so apologies if I break any rules. I read the forum and site guidelines but am still figuring it out. Long time Bluelight reader, but just joined today. I was reading through the forums and thought this was the most appropriate place to ask this question
I'm currently two months clean from meth, thanks to therapy, my boyfriend and a stable job. This is the longest I've gone without using since I started July 2016. When I used, it was at most a 24-hour binge, and I rarely used more than once a month.
My question for others is, when/how did you know you were addicted? I have cravings right now that I'd rather not cave into, but I guess I'm struggling with whether I'm an addict (which is a term I know has many meanings for different people). In the 18 or so months since my first time, I've only used maybe 24 times, yet I still feel like when I used, I kept craving more and more and it felt unstoppable (which is common for meth). Once I sobered up, though, it was always really easy to not want to use for at least a month.
However, when I told friends I used just a couple times around September 2016, they instantly said I was an addict. So I'm not sure if I believe I'm an addict because I actually am one, or because others instantly labeled me as one.
I'm currently two months clean from meth, thanks to therapy, my boyfriend and a stable job. This is the longest I've gone without using since I started July 2016. When I used, it was at most a 24-hour binge, and I rarely used more than once a month.
My question for others is, when/how did you know you were addicted? I have cravings right now that I'd rather not cave into, but I guess I'm struggling with whether I'm an addict (which is a term I know has many meanings for different people). In the 18 or so months since my first time, I've only used maybe 24 times, yet I still feel like when I used, I kept craving more and more and it felt unstoppable (which is common for meth). Once I sobered up, though, it was always really easy to not want to use for at least a month.
However, when I told friends I used just a couple times around September 2016, they instantly said I was an addict. So I'm not sure if I believe I'm an addict because I actually am one, or because others instantly labeled me as one.