Man I've been oxy sick for like a month... due to a couple relapses. In the Autumn I made it 2 months and felt so damn good after the first month and my life was improving so much. I'm back in recovery now - creativity zapped, depressed, muscles aches feel like I'm burnt alive. All this bs.
I find that smoking pot helps but in moderation. This is a general rule of pot for me... less is more. I was giggling last night at yoga as I waited the day to smoke.
I get mild withdrawals from cannabis itself, so in order to get any sort of relief of opioid withdrawal I need to cut back so I can feel the herb again (I needed to do this anyway).
I was smoking 20 1 1/4" joints a day or so... chaining. It was so stupid I wasn't even high anymore and there were a lot of diminished effects and now cravings. But yeah, since I started smoking 3 joints a day, weighed out as .5 to .7 depending on how much I want to get... this is the only thing keeping me sane at this point. I have about a week right now, I've been too messed up to count the days but I started doing hot yoga daily.
I have a class soon just an hour from now I'm psyched! Gonna be baked as hell since I haven't smoked yet today and smoke on the way there. Stoner yoga is SICK and definitely helps opiate withdrawal too! Which if you are anything like me and have a long term habit knows how bad and painful that shit can get. It's beyond words. Relapse is what gets to me as I can ruin months of progress literally in 1 or 2 days. I'll try to stick to my benzos and indica but if I had some afghan #4 in front of me right now I would not hesitate. It's shit... at least I got chron today and a little etiz : ) smokin OG right before stoner yoga! lol. Man... when weed is legal here they should totally have hotbox yoga studios. I'd pay a little extra to have a few ounces vaporized in that small room lol. I love the classes at this studio, I just don't like that I can't take a bong rip in between asanas.
Honest hang in there if you've ever been clean you know what I mean. Shit is so much better no matter who you are after a good month or two. Even 3 weeks, I wasn't waking up wishing I was dead anymore. Best of luck as because addicted to heroin and oxy's has been torture for me. The first year or 2 were great, but then I began to resent what I had become, and I'm still trying to get the fuck out of acute withdrawal AGAIN. Pisses me off sometimes the error of my ways... what the fuck was I thinking that habitual heroin use was acceptable at all. It like, turns off the part of my brain that knows it is fucking garbage as soon as I use any opiate at all. Otherwise, I don't even get cravings unless they are subconscious and impulsive. I despise opiates.
I have felt like complete shit since 5am... I'm getting into the post-acute symptoms more, but cannabis helps so much that without it I will freak mentally. It keeps me mellow in tough times.
I am noticing a drastic improvement in the therapeutic effects of cannabis by spreading out my doses, only smoking pretty big joints (just like .5 - .7 of chron) and no more than 3 a day. I was smoking pounds before, and not feeling shit, so it's amazing to actually feel high for once, as opiates are no longer really capablle of getting me high anymore. My tolerance skyrockets within a single dose, and that first dose is more dangerous than ever sine I don't know my tolerance and tend to get reckless. Someone close to me found me slouched over in a chair nodding for 8 hours straight without moving recently. I need to quit, I don't know what the fuck I'm thinking risking my life like that.
Those waterfalls are sick! By the way, I'd totally recommend 2c-c or 2c-d if you can get them for psychedelic-stimulant microdosing during withdrawal. 2c-c is my favourite psychedelic, along with dmt that I have tried. Binged on it for a few months.... haha.