achemicalreaction
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Hello. I’m new here so apologies if this isn’t the right place for this post.
so backstory is in order:
In April of 2016 I told me then psychiatrist I was addicted to oxy and needed help. He was my psych of 15 years. Almost a father like figure. He then proceeded to direct me to some rehab programs, and refused to be my psychiatrist anymore. Wouldn’t even give a call or exit interview. He did refer me to another psychiatrist however. After I completed a full detox program, the rehab center would not allow me to use support groups because of my Xanax prescription for a slew of mental health issues since my teens. Old shrink referred me to a new shrink, who also promptly lowered my dosage of Xanax, which I complied with and am completely comfortable with. I must note she and I butt heads frequently, she is sort of some upper class psych who went to Yale and I think she think she’s I’m fucking scum, but she sees me for a charity fee in agreement that I see a therapist every week. So, back in May 2016 I did all this, got clean and tossed around by docs, the old shrink dumping me hurt pretty hard, as I was honest and asked for help. Started to see a psychotherapist but she was still in training, and I couldn’t deal. Tried for six months with her, but all I got was “you need to see me twice a week, and what are you feeling etc.” so, I then went and found my current therapist, who I fucking adore.
The problem is, i relapsed hard just a few months after, I think August 2016. Maybe September, and have been lying to them both by omission since.
I am deathly scared to lose the little support I have for mental health, but do I need to tell them? I am almost sure the psych will toss me to the curb, but unsure about therapist. Likely she would have to tell my pysch about the relapse.
Any advice appreciated.
so backstory is in order:
In April of 2016 I told me then psychiatrist I was addicted to oxy and needed help. He was my psych of 15 years. Almost a father like figure. He then proceeded to direct me to some rehab programs, and refused to be my psychiatrist anymore. Wouldn’t even give a call or exit interview. He did refer me to another psychiatrist however. After I completed a full detox program, the rehab center would not allow me to use support groups because of my Xanax prescription for a slew of mental health issues since my teens. Old shrink referred me to a new shrink, who also promptly lowered my dosage of Xanax, which I complied with and am completely comfortable with. I must note she and I butt heads frequently, she is sort of some upper class psych who went to Yale and I think she think she’s I’m fucking scum, but she sees me for a charity fee in agreement that I see a therapist every week. So, back in May 2016 I did all this, got clean and tossed around by docs, the old shrink dumping me hurt pretty hard, as I was honest and asked for help. Started to see a psychotherapist but she was still in training, and I couldn’t deal. Tried for six months with her, but all I got was “you need to see me twice a week, and what are you feeling etc.” so, I then went and found my current therapist, who I fucking adore.
The problem is, i relapsed hard just a few months after, I think August 2016. Maybe September, and have been lying to them both by omission since.
I am deathly scared to lose the little support I have for mental health, but do I need to tell them? I am almost sure the psych will toss me to the curb, but unsure about therapist. Likely she would have to tell my pysch about the relapse.
Any advice appreciated.