Hey Dolby! I would like to give you a belated welcome to our community from myself, the rest of the staff and everybody else in between! If you read through my posts for any period of time, you'll realize that there are a few drugs which I personally consider to be pretty dangerous, harmful and insidious. It's not that I have judgement for the people who use them whatsoever, but, and again, I say it's my personal opinion, I feel that these substances cause a disproportionate amount of suffering, misery and damage to health. Alcohol is a big one for me, but so is Cocaine.
Cocaine can be highly addictive no matter the route of administration, but it's pretty well-understood that Cocaine by the injection or vaporization route is especially intense and therefore, addictive. I've been an Opioid addict for over a decade and I've done a lot of stupid shit, but for some reason, after using Cocaine in this manner (injection/vaporizing) a few times, I just knew that I couldn't keep doing it or it would destroy me. I've only done it a handful of times really and just thinking about the rush from injecting Cocaine makes my mouth water and my heart start pounding. It's been years since I've used it and even then, it was only a few instances of use.
I just feel that Cocaine ropes people in and destroys them at an alarming rate. I'm biased sure, but I consider Crack Cocaine to be a significantly more detrimental substance than Heroin. Considering the fact that I fantasize about the drug and have limited experience with it, I really can't imagine the intensity of the cravings after having had a truly serious habit. You're probably right that it's a good time to stop man. We'll be here to help you with whatever you need, even if it's just emotional support.
We actually have a dedicated area of the forum specifically for members and visitors who desire to get sober, remain sober or even just reduce their usage to a manageable level, the latter almost always being the more realistic option. Do you have a Psychiatrist or a prescribing doctor who can prescribe for you? I'm not saying more drugs are the ultimate answer here, but your brain's gonna be a little bit depleted of its feel-good chemicals and having medications to deal with this backlash can help safe-guard against relapsing and restarting the process.
So, I'm going to move this over to The Dark Side, but if you have any questions that you feel are not being answered, feel free to send me a PM and I will get on it as soon as I can. Hang in there, we will all be here cheering you on and providing you with emotional and intellectual support throughout this tough process!