Mc greyballs
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- Nov 2, 2017
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Okay so I’ve taken mdma on these occasions
febuary - 2016 2 days in a row (half a pill 100mg) and next day full pill (200mg)
may - 2016 once (1 pill)
August - 2016 one day(2 grams of mandy/mdma crystals) (didn’t feel like mdma sent me into psychosis)
april - 2017 (1 pill)
may - 2017 (1g of Mandy/mdma crystals) got aphasia symptoms not being able to find my words as well. Anxiety made this worst.
august/September - 2017 ( 3 nights of taking 1-2 pills each all in week spaces at least) aphasia symptoms got worse, memory problems also, general not much clarity in communication.
Ive stopped taking mdma now that I’ve realised it may well be the cause of these symptoms. When I don’t have any anxiety it’s a lot better but I can’t remember the last time I had clear thoughts without thinking “is it going to happen” and “ah fuck it happened again” and constantly worrying about it, which is not making it better at all.
How will I be able to recover from this? Eating healthy and exercising? Is this going to be permanent? I really don’t feel as sharp before and the anxiety is making it worst than it really should, but what can I do to help this?
When I drink alcohol it’s a lot better and when I get on cocaine I don’t notice it at all and become quite clear with my thoughts and memory etc... (I only drink and get on cocaine when I got clubbing, it’s not frequent use)
im also on 100mg of amisulpride (an antipsychotic) to stop me from hearing voices.
i know my mdma usage was ill advised so I don’t need a preach about that if you can stop yourself.
any advice is greatly appreciated
febuary - 2016 2 days in a row (half a pill 100mg) and next day full pill (200mg)
may - 2016 once (1 pill)
August - 2016 one day(2 grams of mandy/mdma crystals) (didn’t feel like mdma sent me into psychosis)
april - 2017 (1 pill)
may - 2017 (1g of Mandy/mdma crystals) got aphasia symptoms not being able to find my words as well. Anxiety made this worst.
august/September - 2017 ( 3 nights of taking 1-2 pills each all in week spaces at least) aphasia symptoms got worse, memory problems also, general not much clarity in communication.
Ive stopped taking mdma now that I’ve realised it may well be the cause of these symptoms. When I don’t have any anxiety it’s a lot better but I can’t remember the last time I had clear thoughts without thinking “is it going to happen” and “ah fuck it happened again” and constantly worrying about it, which is not making it better at all.
How will I be able to recover from this? Eating healthy and exercising? Is this going to be permanent? I really don’t feel as sharp before and the anxiety is making it worst than it really should, but what can I do to help this?
When I drink alcohol it’s a lot better and when I get on cocaine I don’t notice it at all and become quite clear with my thoughts and memory etc... (I only drink and get on cocaine when I got clubbing, it’s not frequent use)
im also on 100mg of amisulpride (an antipsychotic) to stop me from hearing voices.
i know my mdma usage was ill advised so I don’t need a preach about that if you can stop yourself.
any advice is greatly appreciated