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I’m 14 years old. I’m a good kid if you want to get that clear, school comes easy for me, but I’m lazy and bored. I have horrible work ethic. I always end up getting 89s having an A B honorole, when I could easily achieve full As... Now I’ve always been interested in aderall and things of such, testing it out. I may as well try it at least. Is this all bullshit about getting better grades; and enhancing your life? So I know the people who sell drugs at my school... a guy hooked me up easily... Except not with aderall. He said he had vyvanse. The first time I did it he gave me one pill at lunch.
Now I did lots of research, and the pill did not end up being vyvanse. But that’s besides the point. He forced me to pop it quickly... I didn’t care and didn’t look at it, due to the fact there were teachers everywhere. I payed him my dollar. Everything felt clear. I just “woke up”. I felt a small bit happy. I enjoyed it and wanted to experiment with it more. I had easy classes after lunch’s I didnt really see the effects on focus. Then, that night I could not sleep. The drug I took I later found out was a 25 mg pill of STEM a pill designed to last for 16 hours. I took it at 12:00 pm. I didn’t sleep that night until 4 am. It was ok. I found out. I knew what he did. He basically told me he had given it to me to see if I liked stimulants and also see if I’d tell on him. So I asked him for more, and made sure he gave me vyvanse this time, after I caught up on sleep.
I can confirm, it was vyvanse. I inspected it, written on the side was the serial code “S489”, and written on the other side was 70 mg. Vyvanse was slower than STEM/aderall. I like vyvanse. Firstly, it’s cheap (for a 5 mg aderall it can me 5$). Secondly, it does not really any nasty side effects besides you dick shrinking and becoming thirsty (I just bring water with me). 3. It’s subtle and is just better... Anyway, I bought 3 vyvanse from him. All 70 mg. Later I took one. I can’t put into words what I felt. I didn’t feel my head hurting. I felt happy and I was so motivated to complete my notes and other things, at first I thought it was a scam somehow and he didn’t give me any drug, and that he was hoping to run off porcini. Although after about 2 hours, I felt so much... Th worlds constrast went up, I could see clearly, sharply. I had a tiny stage of paronoia thinking that allthe teachers knew I was high that day, and I made some irrational precautions, nothing too bad.
That’s all the bad things that happened that day. I was thinking 100 miles per hour. I enjoyed my school day, although it was right before thanksgiving break, so pretty much every class had a sub. I acted a little bit strange, but that day I noticed I was talking to people mainly, and I usually have a problem in language arts, I hate reading. It’s horrible. I look at text and just zone out almost immeadietly. But, on vyvanse, I was reading like a god. It was too easy. That night I slept well. Coming back into school, I got a bad fever, and could not sleep. I was getting chills and sweating. I skipped my first 2 days back for sick days. Wednesday rolls around and I’ve already missed a lot of work. I had no choice. I was nearly well anyway. So I decided I’d go to school. I woke up and felt awful. I was so tired. I just needed to sleep more. How could I preform at school. Then I thought about taking vyvanse. I looked at the pills and I flipped a coin. Heads yes and tails no. I got tails. I thought for a second, disappointed with the result, then went “fuck it” and popped a vyvanse. Same effects. I went to school. Although I had a sore throat and a headache, they both disappeared on the drug idk. I was reserved being sick and all, but I completed the work. I took vyvanse 70 mg consecutively for the next 3 days. Running on literally 2 hours sleep a night and still surviving, when my vyvanse wore out on Friday, I immeadietly fell asleep. I didn’t take any on the weekend. Fast forward to Monday, I felt better, and didn’t look like shit.
The entire weekend I wanted a reason to take vyvanse. Monday rolls around, and I go buy more vyvanse. About 30$ worth of it. 20 or so pills. All 70 mg and also one more STEM 25 mg was included. When I took vyvanse I found a few things. I started talking to people. I started to be nice to people. And I started taking notes and paying attention in class. Started talking to girls. Previously I had no friends, nor did I have the desire for friends. I hardly did my work and zoned out for class. I was irratable and I was mean to people. I was extremely anti-social. I took vyvanse until Thursday, and continued to have these amazing effects. I already was acing tests, and continued. I cared about my work. I was enjoying school where previously all I would think is “when does this end.” Sulking the entire day. Because my tolerance expires every weekend from not taking the drug, I always have the full effects from the same dosage. I love seeing the saturation everything has after you take it. You feel alive. Anyway, roll around to Thursday, yesterday, I knew I was getting addicted. I felt it. Non prescribed drugs are prescription for a reason.
I have done so much research though. And I know what they are... so I never increase my dosage and check my heartrate with bringing massive amounts of water to school. Anyway, I willed myself not to take vyvanse on Thursday. School was hell. I zoned out in math. Didn’t do my work. Took no notes. I literally didn’t even care about my English. I had to complete my homework before class. I didn’t do any of my work, and talked to no one. In fact, I ignored everyone around me I talked to on vyvanse, and was excessively mean to some people I previously talked to. After making it through the long day, I went to sleep. Everything was bland. I was depressed again. Forgot to mention I was previously extremely bored with my life. I was not suicidal on sadness, but boredom. I felt empty. I didn’t really care what happened. Regardless I felt depressed again. Like my life was meaningless. I just went to sleep. This morning I took more vyvanse. I felt good today. I gave a speech and presentation. I aced it. I felt so confident. Easy 97. Now I am coming down off of my dose I took this morning. Slowly but surely I’m losing it. I’m still motivated tho, hence why I wrote this. I would definitely not write this sober.
But to the point:
Is this bad? I’m just generally a better person in vyvanse. The world opened up. I have friends now, I’m getting the grades I require, keeping 95s never missing assignments. I stopped my irrational behavior and am no longer depressed. I enjoy school. Three weeks ago I felt flat and empty, thinking about my future. I didn’t want to kill myself, that’s irrational, I may as well live it out. But let me put it this way... if someone held me at gunpoint, I would not bat an eye. I didn’t care.
I have kept this secret from everyone, except obviously my drug dealer. I’ve never had any trouble weight with vyvanse.
Just to clarify, I do not have ADHD. I have been tested.
Now I did lots of research, and the pill did not end up being vyvanse. But that’s besides the point. He forced me to pop it quickly... I didn’t care and didn’t look at it, due to the fact there were teachers everywhere. I payed him my dollar. Everything felt clear. I just “woke up”. I felt a small bit happy. I enjoyed it and wanted to experiment with it more. I had easy classes after lunch’s I didnt really see the effects on focus. Then, that night I could not sleep. The drug I took I later found out was a 25 mg pill of STEM a pill designed to last for 16 hours. I took it at 12:00 pm. I didn’t sleep that night until 4 am. It was ok. I found out. I knew what he did. He basically told me he had given it to me to see if I liked stimulants and also see if I’d tell on him. So I asked him for more, and made sure he gave me vyvanse this time, after I caught up on sleep.
I can confirm, it was vyvanse. I inspected it, written on the side was the serial code “S489”, and written on the other side was 70 mg. Vyvanse was slower than STEM/aderall. I like vyvanse. Firstly, it’s cheap (for a 5 mg aderall it can me 5$). Secondly, it does not really any nasty side effects besides you dick shrinking and becoming thirsty (I just bring water with me). 3. It’s subtle and is just better... Anyway, I bought 3 vyvanse from him. All 70 mg. Later I took one. I can’t put into words what I felt. I didn’t feel my head hurting. I felt happy and I was so motivated to complete my notes and other things, at first I thought it was a scam somehow and he didn’t give me any drug, and that he was hoping to run off porcini. Although after about 2 hours, I felt so much... Th worlds constrast went up, I could see clearly, sharply. I had a tiny stage of paronoia thinking that allthe teachers knew I was high that day, and I made some irrational precautions, nothing too bad.
That’s all the bad things that happened that day. I was thinking 100 miles per hour. I enjoyed my school day, although it was right before thanksgiving break, so pretty much every class had a sub. I acted a little bit strange, but that day I noticed I was talking to people mainly, and I usually have a problem in language arts, I hate reading. It’s horrible. I look at text and just zone out almost immeadietly. But, on vyvanse, I was reading like a god. It was too easy. That night I slept well. Coming back into school, I got a bad fever, and could not sleep. I was getting chills and sweating. I skipped my first 2 days back for sick days. Wednesday rolls around and I’ve already missed a lot of work. I had no choice. I was nearly well anyway. So I decided I’d go to school. I woke up and felt awful. I was so tired. I just needed to sleep more. How could I preform at school. Then I thought about taking vyvanse. I looked at the pills and I flipped a coin. Heads yes and tails no. I got tails. I thought for a second, disappointed with the result, then went “fuck it” and popped a vyvanse. Same effects. I went to school. Although I had a sore throat and a headache, they both disappeared on the drug idk. I was reserved being sick and all, but I completed the work. I took vyvanse 70 mg consecutively for the next 3 days. Running on literally 2 hours sleep a night and still surviving, when my vyvanse wore out on Friday, I immeadietly fell asleep. I didn’t take any on the weekend. Fast forward to Monday, I felt better, and didn’t look like shit.
The entire weekend I wanted a reason to take vyvanse. Monday rolls around, and I go buy more vyvanse. About 30$ worth of it. 20 or so pills. All 70 mg and also one more STEM 25 mg was included. When I took vyvanse I found a few things. I started talking to people. I started to be nice to people. And I started taking notes and paying attention in class. Started talking to girls. Previously I had no friends, nor did I have the desire for friends. I hardly did my work and zoned out for class. I was irratable and I was mean to people. I was extremely anti-social. I took vyvanse until Thursday, and continued to have these amazing effects. I already was acing tests, and continued. I cared about my work. I was enjoying school where previously all I would think is “when does this end.” Sulking the entire day. Because my tolerance expires every weekend from not taking the drug, I always have the full effects from the same dosage. I love seeing the saturation everything has after you take it. You feel alive. Anyway, roll around to Thursday, yesterday, I knew I was getting addicted. I felt it. Non prescribed drugs are prescription for a reason.
I have done so much research though. And I know what they are... so I never increase my dosage and check my heartrate with bringing massive amounts of water to school. Anyway, I willed myself not to take vyvanse on Thursday. School was hell. I zoned out in math. Didn’t do my work. Took no notes. I literally didn’t even care about my English. I had to complete my homework before class. I didn’t do any of my work, and talked to no one. In fact, I ignored everyone around me I talked to on vyvanse, and was excessively mean to some people I previously talked to. After making it through the long day, I went to sleep. Everything was bland. I was depressed again. Forgot to mention I was previously extremely bored with my life. I was not suicidal on sadness, but boredom. I felt empty. I didn’t really care what happened. Regardless I felt depressed again. Like my life was meaningless. I just went to sleep. This morning I took more vyvanse. I felt good today. I gave a speech and presentation. I aced it. I felt so confident. Easy 97. Now I am coming down off of my dose I took this morning. Slowly but surely I’m losing it. I’m still motivated tho, hence why I wrote this. I would definitely not write this sober.
But to the point:
Is this bad? I’m just generally a better person in vyvanse. The world opened up. I have friends now, I’m getting the grades I require, keeping 95s never missing assignments. I stopped my irrational behavior and am no longer depressed. I enjoy school. Three weeks ago I felt flat and empty, thinking about my future. I didn’t want to kill myself, that’s irrational, I may as well live it out. But let me put it this way... if someone held me at gunpoint, I would not bat an eye. I didn’t care.
I have kept this secret from everyone, except obviously my drug dealer. I’ve never had any trouble weight with vyvanse.
Just to clarify, I do not have ADHD. I have been tested.
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