Trippduptrappdout
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Dec 7, 2017
- Messages
- 4
Hell members of blue light... this is my first pay on here so please spare me. Well, I’ll just come out and say it. I THINK LSD has fucked me up. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve always been a little wacky, but I could function socially and my wackiness even made me more appealing to people (I think). After taking LSD a few times though(biggest trip was 300 mcg and previous trips were maybe 90 mcg), and smoking tons of weed chronically, plus doing some mescaline, plus some mushrooms, I can’t hold conversations and I have social anxiety, I constantly do things alone, but when I’m alone I want to be with people, and when I’m with people I want to be alone. I’m still smart, I can put together good essays and can do all my homework, but I usually have to do it alone and can’t do any kind of group work. When I talk, it comes out slow too, which makes me think my thinking has been slowed down. It’s hard for me to relate to people... I hardly feel any emotions... and the emotions I do feel tend to be somewhat intense. I used to be very socially awkward when I was younger, then out of willpower I worked on myself, and became a social butterfly and someone that could talk to almost anyone. I was the student body president at my school and gave great speeches. I feel like I am a shell of what I used to be. Also, the trips I had were after a loved one in my family passed, and I wasn’t ina good place. Does anybody have the same issues? I keep these thoughts locked up in my head and don’t really express them... hoping I can find some answers here or atleast some people that relate. Thoughts?
