jrich
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I wouldn't recommend using meth if you are depressed. With it destroying the dopamine transmitters I couldn't even imagine the negative feels you would have after even using a few times a week.
I started out snorting and smoking meth here and there with my boyfriend. While it had its productive moments I often found myself spending hours on a mindless task...and forget doing anything on the computer, Id get lost for hours and the next thing I knew the sun was coming up. While I was able to indulge on it on the weekends once Monday rolled around and it was back to work, I was ok for the most part... by Wednesday I found myself doing an awful lot of wishful thinking that I was high and couldn't wait for the weekend to get here. I was able to maintain this routine for about a couple of weeks before I was using during the work week as well. I had fallen for meths dangerous spell. A weekend shortly after that my boyfriend informed me that smoking it just wasn't cutting it for him anymore and that he was going to start slamming it. He had a prior history with heroin and was no stranger to the needle... I on the other hand thought no way in hell am I putting a needle into my arm as I was so skeeved out by them. So as I snorted, he would slam it... Well curiosity got the best of me and asked what it felt like. He described the rush to me and I told him that I would like to experience that high at least once... It was that morning I got to experience the best high I have ever had. Now fast forward to now...if you were to look at my hands and arms they are covered in unsightly bruises and track marks all caused by my own hand. I am not only able to shoot myself up but have a constant craving for that rush on a daily basis... and my moods, well, they are off the chart when I cant.
I wanted to share this with you because I was a heavy drinker with the thrills of other drugs thrown in here and there. I never thought of myself having an addictive personality as I was able to use other drugs with no second thought of them when I didn't have them. I dont know what it is like to eat meth, and maybe it would be a subtle high... But you've done the research before hand and thats something that I wish I could've done as I never expected to be where I am now. I have a good job and have a fairly normal life... I haven't pissed away all of my money, stolen anything, or hurt anyone... While I know not everyone is lucky to maintain a normal life on meth, I would personally advise strongly against even consider using it, as one just never knows....
I started out snorting and smoking meth here and there with my boyfriend. While it had its productive moments I often found myself spending hours on a mindless task...and forget doing anything on the computer, Id get lost for hours and the next thing I knew the sun was coming up. While I was able to indulge on it on the weekends once Monday rolled around and it was back to work, I was ok for the most part... by Wednesday I found myself doing an awful lot of wishful thinking that I was high and couldn't wait for the weekend to get here. I was able to maintain this routine for about a couple of weeks before I was using during the work week as well. I had fallen for meths dangerous spell. A weekend shortly after that my boyfriend informed me that smoking it just wasn't cutting it for him anymore and that he was going to start slamming it. He had a prior history with heroin and was no stranger to the needle... I on the other hand thought no way in hell am I putting a needle into my arm as I was so skeeved out by them. So as I snorted, he would slam it... Well curiosity got the best of me and asked what it felt like. He described the rush to me and I told him that I would like to experience that high at least once... It was that morning I got to experience the best high I have ever had. Now fast forward to now...if you were to look at my hands and arms they are covered in unsightly bruises and track marks all caused by my own hand. I am not only able to shoot myself up but have a constant craving for that rush on a daily basis... and my moods, well, they are off the chart when I cant.
I wanted to share this with you because I was a heavy drinker with the thrills of other drugs thrown in here and there. I never thought of myself having an addictive personality as I was able to use other drugs with no second thought of them when I didn't have them. I dont know what it is like to eat meth, and maybe it would be a subtle high... But you've done the research before hand and thats something that I wish I could've done as I never expected to be where I am now. I have a good job and have a fairly normal life... I haven't pissed away all of my money, stolen anything, or hurt anyone... While I know not everyone is lucky to maintain a normal life on meth, I would personally advise strongly against even consider using it, as one just never knows....