So this is my story of a brutal MDMA comedown. On NYE of this year I took a 220 mg xtc pill and 2 lines of mephydrone few hours before. Didn’t use anything in 2016. I divided it in quarter, just before it kicked in half and the other quarter like 2.5 hours later. The pills where tested and others took them too.
Had a pretty fierce kick in, but after a few minutes everything was fine.
After the trip, the next day everything was fine, but then 2 days after the comedown was really heavy.
So after a week or so most symptoms dissapeared, but the concentration/memory problem, light sensitivity and dizziness lasted. Because I had a pretty calm semester it didn’t stand out that much. When working 2 days a week I noticed I wasn’t recovered 100%. Had a panic attack now and then, feeling tired, bit dizzy. But in march I had to write my bachelor thesis and also work. Then, after a few weeks the big problems came, couldn’t handle stress, dizzy feeling at the right side of my face, brain fog, anxious. All when doing labor or studying.
So went to my GP, blood tests, MRI all good. So at that point I knew it had to do something with the XTC. With pain and effort I finished my bachelor thesis, although symptoms became more and more. In the holidays I was hoping to recover but, I did a bit. I couldn’t really concentrate or do effort. Tried to start with my masters, but after a few weeks of hard work I experienced massive brain fogs and anxiety. So I decided to take a break, now after a few weeks of rest everything was pretty quiet, still not there of course. This week I tried working for 8 hours, after a few hours I got a dizzy feeling at the right side of my face, enormous brain fog (living like a robot in this case), increased light sensitive, getting bit of tunnel vision and anxiety. So now I’m having a little bit rest and symptoms slowly start to fade. Experiencing brain fog and sensitive to stimulus little bit. Dizzy/tense feeling in the skin slowly fades. Since a month there’s a little floater flying sometimes, but I think it’s more because of the anxiety I notice. Also I don’t know it’s because of the light sensitivity there’s a little bit visual snow noticeable on walls.
Stopped drinking coffee and alcohol since september.
I’m really intolerant to doing anything, cause if I live like a greenhouse plant I’m a lot better then working. I can do some easy sports, but with high labor I can’t really function. Also doing a hobby or being with friends isn’t a problem, just have to make sure I don’t get tired.
Are there more people who recognize this. I did read some MDMA recovery, but it’s like doing anything gives me problems.. I don’t know if I will ever recover from this. I’m so scared I can never work or study again. Also getting pretty depressed. It’s weird your life can change like this in one night..
Trying to avoid effort, live healthy, sleep regularly, meditate and do some sports. Think it’s best to avoid an SSRI. Hope I can recover somehow.
Had a pretty fierce kick in, but after a few minutes everything was fine.
After the trip, the next day everything was fine, but then 2 days after the comedown was really heavy.
- Anxious
- Brain zaps
- Sweaty hands
- No concentration/memory
- Sensitive to light
- Couldn’t handle any stress or effort
- Shocks in my sleep
- Nightmares
- Dizziness
So after a week or so most symptoms dissapeared, but the concentration/memory problem, light sensitivity and dizziness lasted. Because I had a pretty calm semester it didn’t stand out that much. When working 2 days a week I noticed I wasn’t recovered 100%. Had a panic attack now and then, feeling tired, bit dizzy. But in march I had to write my bachelor thesis and also work. Then, after a few weeks the big problems came, couldn’t handle stress, dizzy feeling at the right side of my face, brain fog, anxious. All when doing labor or studying.
So went to my GP, blood tests, MRI all good. So at that point I knew it had to do something with the XTC. With pain and effort I finished my bachelor thesis, although symptoms became more and more. In the holidays I was hoping to recover but, I did a bit. I couldn’t really concentrate or do effort. Tried to start with my masters, but after a few weeks of hard work I experienced massive brain fogs and anxiety. So I decided to take a break, now after a few weeks of rest everything was pretty quiet, still not there of course. This week I tried working for 8 hours, after a few hours I got a dizzy feeling at the right side of my face, enormous brain fog (living like a robot in this case), increased light sensitive, getting bit of tunnel vision and anxiety. So now I’m having a little bit rest and symptoms slowly start to fade. Experiencing brain fog and sensitive to stimulus little bit. Dizzy/tense feeling in the skin slowly fades. Since a month there’s a little floater flying sometimes, but I think it’s more because of the anxiety I notice. Also I don’t know it’s because of the light sensitivity there’s a little bit visual snow noticeable on walls.
Stopped drinking coffee and alcohol since september.
I’m really intolerant to doing anything, cause if I live like a greenhouse plant I’m a lot better then working. I can do some easy sports, but with high labor I can’t really function. Also doing a hobby or being with friends isn’t a problem, just have to make sure I don’t get tired.
Are there more people who recognize this. I did read some MDMA recovery, but it’s like doing anything gives me problems.. I don’t know if I will ever recover from this. I’m so scared I can never work or study again. Also getting pretty depressed. It’s weird your life can change like this in one night..
Trying to avoid effort, live healthy, sleep regularly, meditate and do some sports. Think it’s best to avoid an SSRI. Hope I can recover somehow.
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