I’ve been a lurker for a long time and decided to finally register
I’ve been using opiates for a while now, the past 4 years it’s been pretty much everyday. I’ve tapered a few times and gone 7 days without anything but always end up going back.
Up until about 4 yers ago I could take them for my migraines and other medical problems without abusing them but alot of bad stuff has been happening in my life and I started using them to cope.
One of my problems is I always have access to them so it’s hard to stay strong especially with everything I’ve been going through and nobody knows I have this problem.
I’ve told myself I want to quit before but it hasn’t worked so I hope this can be another step to help me because before if I went back nobody even knew I tried quitting so I was just letting myself down.
I take care of my elderly mother who has been using opiates most of my life, the last few years she has been having a lot of health issues physically and emotionally and I’m the only one to care for her because the rest of my family doesn’t get along with her because of her opiate abuse and what’s it’s done to me growing up. The last few years I’ve had to dedicate just about all my time to her so I don’t really have a social life anymore and I think that’s one of my reasons for using.
She gets pain meds too and I have to be in charge of hers so it’s always on my mind and she always tells me I should take some of mine.
I don’t think it would be as hard if it was just me because I could get rid of mine or put them somewhere and try not to think about them but everyday all day I’m reminded about them when I have to give her pills.
I can’t really let anybody know because I think it would destroy what’s left of our family relationship and I can’t go on like this.
Sorry about the long post, I could probably go on and on about how my life got to this point.
*edit
Forgot to mention but today is my 3rd day not using anything, I think the physical symptoms aren’t too bad because I did manage to taper before I jumped but the cravings are terrible it’s all I can think about.
I’ve been having a lot of depression even before I started trying to quit and it’s been a lot worse since, I’ve also some anxiety since stopping especially in the mornings when I usually take my first dose.
I’ve been using opiates for a while now, the past 4 years it’s been pretty much everyday. I’ve tapered a few times and gone 7 days without anything but always end up going back.
Up until about 4 yers ago I could take them for my migraines and other medical problems without abusing them but alot of bad stuff has been happening in my life and I started using them to cope.
One of my problems is I always have access to them so it’s hard to stay strong especially with everything I’ve been going through and nobody knows I have this problem.
I’ve told myself I want to quit before but it hasn’t worked so I hope this can be another step to help me because before if I went back nobody even knew I tried quitting so I was just letting myself down.
I take care of my elderly mother who has been using opiates most of my life, the last few years she has been having a lot of health issues physically and emotionally and I’m the only one to care for her because the rest of my family doesn’t get along with her because of her opiate abuse and what’s it’s done to me growing up. The last few years I’ve had to dedicate just about all my time to her so I don’t really have a social life anymore and I think that’s one of my reasons for using.
She gets pain meds too and I have to be in charge of hers so it’s always on my mind and she always tells me I should take some of mine.
I don’t think it would be as hard if it was just me because I could get rid of mine or put them somewhere and try not to think about them but everyday all day I’m reminded about them when I have to give her pills.
I can’t really let anybody know because I think it would destroy what’s left of our family relationship and I can’t go on like this.
Sorry about the long post, I could probably go on and on about how my life got to this point.
*edit
Forgot to mention but today is my 3rd day not using anything, I think the physical symptoms aren’t too bad because I did manage to taper before I jumped but the cravings are terrible it’s all I can think about.
I’ve been having a lot of depression even before I started trying to quit and it’s been a lot worse since, I’ve also some anxiety since stopping especially in the mornings when I usually take my first dose.
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