Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
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- Nov 3, 1999
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Greetings everyone :D Hope you're all doing well.
I've been kind of bummed out lately because I tapered off of everything so gradually this last time that I never got the "pink cloud" that usually accompanies my newfound sobriety (after a hellish withdrawal, of course). Well, I found my pink cloud after reading some old journals and seeing just how far I've come.
Here's an entry from August 1st, 2015, just over two years ago. This is copied verbatim, so it's not entirely cohesive:
"I feel like a worthless junkie scumbag and I just hate myself so much. I feel so completely helpless and hopeless and I honestly have no clue what to do. If somebody told me to go to rehab right now I'd probably go."
That was hard to read and even harder to type, but I wanted to share it. Man... sometimes I forget just how bad it got at times. It really makes me appreciate how good I feel now.
Peace, Love and Faith,
Dreamflyer
I've been kind of bummed out lately because I tapered off of everything so gradually this last time that I never got the "pink cloud" that usually accompanies my newfound sobriety (after a hellish withdrawal, of course). Well, I found my pink cloud after reading some old journals and seeing just how far I've come.
Here's an entry from August 1st, 2015, just over two years ago. This is copied verbatim, so it's not entirely cohesive:
"I feel like a worthless junkie scumbag and I just hate myself so much. I feel so completely helpless and hopeless and I honestly have no clue what to do. If somebody told me to go to rehab right now I'd probably go."
That was hard to read and even harder to type, but I wanted to share it. Man... sometimes I forget just how bad it got at times. It really makes me appreciate how good I feel now.
Peace, Love and Faith,
Dreamflyer