Sun Drugs
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jan 5, 2013
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Hello,
Ahhh where to begin. I am 28, have a pretty extensive drug use history, but the last year and a half or so I have settled down into more of a...long term dependence that I hadn't really realized (or wanted to realize until now). I have experience withdrawing from opiates and have used many many classes of drugs, but benzos are kicking my ass.
I started taking etizolam daily in March of 2016. Started with 1mg a day, it was wonderful. Then at some point I went up to 1mg twice a day occasionally. A few months go by, I attend a music festival in Austin in October and still things are good...but I am beginning to realize that I am having trouble "getting going" without etiz. So late October, I leave my job for a higher paying one, with a lot more responsibility and hours. It is a LOT more stressful and next thing I know I am up to 4mg a day (2mg morning, 2mg lunch).
This continued until June or so, when I decided to taper my etiz dose with the help of clonazolam. Regrettably, I ended up using them both concurrently and not lowering my etiz dose. 0.5mg of clonazolam doesnt do much and I am hesitant to raise my dose above .75mg.
Oh yeah almost forgot...I also use 4.5g phenibut every two days. Been doing this for 13 months now.
So currently my regimen consisits more or less of:
-4.5g phenibut every two days
-.5mg clonazolam daily
-2.5-4mg etiz (depending on stress...if I want to get recreational I will throw down another 2mg at the end of the day :/)
-Marijuana - when I am on benzos, I smoke so much weed. Want to cut down on this too.
Anyone else have experience or advice? Today I am being more rigid -- already took the phenibut....will take .5mg clonazolam, 1mg etiz....then maybe .5mg clonazolam in the evening and .5mg etiz (or none) if I can handle it.
I feel like benzos have sapped my life force completely. I feel sub-human. Not enough emotion in me, nothing really phazes me, I'm in a quagmire and want to get out. I have a bright future ahead of me so I need to be off of drugs by January.
Oh yeah, also, psychedelics would always temper my drugs usage for some time after the experience, but I have not been able to get my hands on any recently. They help me out immensely.
Sorry for the rant, wrote it very quick because I know if I don't write this now I'll go another year just sinking into the quicksand.
Thank you for reading.
EDIT: Ordered a few oz of kratom a few weeks ago to see if it would help using less benzos, but it did not. Used it for 3 weeks twice a day and stopped with no issues too hard to manage. Are there over the counter supplements that would help with the benzos?
Ahhh where to begin. I am 28, have a pretty extensive drug use history, but the last year and a half or so I have settled down into more of a...long term dependence that I hadn't really realized (or wanted to realize until now). I have experience withdrawing from opiates and have used many many classes of drugs, but benzos are kicking my ass.
I started taking etizolam daily in March of 2016. Started with 1mg a day, it was wonderful. Then at some point I went up to 1mg twice a day occasionally. A few months go by, I attend a music festival in Austin in October and still things are good...but I am beginning to realize that I am having trouble "getting going" without etiz. So late October, I leave my job for a higher paying one, with a lot more responsibility and hours. It is a LOT more stressful and next thing I know I am up to 4mg a day (2mg morning, 2mg lunch).
This continued until June or so, when I decided to taper my etiz dose with the help of clonazolam. Regrettably, I ended up using them both concurrently and not lowering my etiz dose. 0.5mg of clonazolam doesnt do much and I am hesitant to raise my dose above .75mg.
Oh yeah almost forgot...I also use 4.5g phenibut every two days. Been doing this for 13 months now.
So currently my regimen consisits more or less of:
-4.5g phenibut every two days
-.5mg clonazolam daily
-2.5-4mg etiz (depending on stress...if I want to get recreational I will throw down another 2mg at the end of the day :/)
-Marijuana - when I am on benzos, I smoke so much weed. Want to cut down on this too.
Anyone else have experience or advice? Today I am being more rigid -- already took the phenibut....will take .5mg clonazolam, 1mg etiz....then maybe .5mg clonazolam in the evening and .5mg etiz (or none) if I can handle it.
I feel like benzos have sapped my life force completely. I feel sub-human. Not enough emotion in me, nothing really phazes me, I'm in a quagmire and want to get out. I have a bright future ahead of me so I need to be off of drugs by January.
Oh yeah, also, psychedelics would always temper my drugs usage for some time after the experience, but I have not been able to get my hands on any recently. They help me out immensely.
Sorry for the rant, wrote it very quick because I know if I don't write this now I'll go another year just sinking into the quicksand.
Thank you for reading.
EDIT: Ordered a few oz of kratom a few weeks ago to see if it would help using less benzos, but it did not. Used it for 3 weeks twice a day and stopped with no issues too hard to manage. Are there over the counter supplements that would help with the benzos?