Okay im new to this site. I have been battling heroin withdrawl for 5 days now...hooray 5 days no H!!!...while the worst of it is definitely a not so distant memory the going cold turkey is still having an effect on me. It's more I can't stop thinking about using. My girl friend of 5 years...whom I introduced to pills and when I graduated to heroin of coarse she came with me....had an emotional break down. Came clean to everybody in her family about what was going on and that she needed help. They immediately fingered me as the root cause(some truth there) and took her out of state where she laid around and got clean. She put together 23 days clean while I stayed here and kept for the most part using. Snorting lethal amounts of heroin was our life for a would year before that it was lethal amounts of oxy. Anyway,she is back and riding her pink cloud high. She's never going to use again. Never going to touch it again so she says. I'm being more realistic about it and trying to take it one day at a time. She thinks I have more clean time then I really do. I love her I don't want to loose her. I know unless you quit because you want to then your doomed and part of me is convinced I got clean only because she came back to me. Statistically we are doomed I get that. I'm only wondering if anybody else out there is dealing with or has dealt with anything similar or exactly the same? Part of me feels like until I can fully commit to getting clean for me I'm only going to be damaging to her recovery but the selfish addict in me is so happy she is back and back with me I've bit the bullet for the last 5 days. I don't know what to do....