Totbot, I know that fear you speak of all to well. Hardcore withdrawals are soooo much worse than the flu. I?d rather have the flu anyday. In fact I wish it was as easy as the flu. You can do it though!! I feel for your brother and his Xanax kick. Benzo withdrawals are unbelievably painful and traumatizing. So happy we was able to get through that. Just a reminder to those who may read this thinking about doing a benzo kick, benzo withdrawals can be deadly if not done properly. Please seek medical attention if you need to get off Benzos. Same with alcohol. Booze withdrawals can be deadly as well. Get off the shit, but be careful with those two substances and their withdrawal. Totbot, I?ve been taking Kratom by mixing the powdered leaf in a cup with warm water and drinking it down. I hate it. It tastes awful and I can?t wait to not have to ever do it again. When I tried to taper I was decreasing by a couple grams every 3-4 days when I was at higher doses (basically above 25 grams/day. I never made it below that as I just didn?t have the discipline to stick to it and not take more than I needed. I?ve been taking anywhere from 30-60 grams a day lately. I?m officially out of Kratom as of tonight and have no money to buy more so tomorrow will be day one again of cold turkey. I plan to take loperamide, high doses of vitamin c every 2-3 hours, amino acids, black seed oil, and doxylamine and melatonin for sleep. For whatever reason insomnia isn?t too bad for me during Kratom withdrawals. Neither is restless legs. For me the worst symptoms are crippling depression, some anxiety, and extreme nausea and dysohoria. I?m feeling good about it though. Today I woke up in withdrawals and couldn?t access my Kratom supply until mid afternoon. Upon waking up I took loperamide and about 6 grams of vitamin c. Whithin an hour I felt pretty ok. So tomorrow I?ll be doing the same as well as the other supplements I mentioned previously in this post. I?ll update soon with how things are going with the cold turkey. Thanks for all who have posted and those struggling. I?m very grateful for all your sharing, support, encouragement etc. I have a new group of recovery friends from my Outpatient Program, which I completed last week, that I?m in contact with and going to daily AA and NA meetings with. Also have a great support network consisting of friends and family. For all these things I feel very fortunate and greatful. Take care everyone. Here?s to health and sobriety!!!