cyberius
Bluelight Crew
- Joined
- Mar 11, 2013
- Messages
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Motivation
I always tell people I'm cleaning up, it's desperate to believe it because I never meant it. I love meth, its well - everything. I never really wanted to quit until now. My girlfriend and I's six year anniversery is today and my god she must love me more then I love crystal meth to put up with me. It hit me that I really do have a pretty significant influence on the lives around me and selling my soul to satan rips apart my loved ones.
I finally want to get better.
Problem is, I think about meth 24/7. The cravings supersede everything else but my conscious desire not to harm those around me anymore. I've concluded that meth is a bitch to get away from because of the duration of psychological fallout and potential neurotoxicity users may face during recovery. Can you guys provide some resources to help me manage rebuilding my life and riding this shred of motivation out?
I always tell people I'm cleaning up, it's desperate to believe it because I never meant it. I love meth, its well - everything. I never really wanted to quit until now. My girlfriend and I's six year anniversery is today and my god she must love me more then I love crystal meth to put up with me. It hit me that I really do have a pretty significant influence on the lives around me and selling my soul to satan rips apart my loved ones.
I finally want to get better.
Problem is, I think about meth 24/7. The cravings supersede everything else but my conscious desire not to harm those around me anymore. I've concluded that meth is a bitch to get away from because of the duration of psychological fallout and potential neurotoxicity users may face during recovery. Can you guys provide some resources to help me manage rebuilding my life and riding this shred of motivation out?