Octsober again. This is actually also the month I joined bluelight in, and the month I was born it. Guess it's fitting if it were the month I quit in. I'm trying to get clean once again. I am now over 4 weeks clean. So technically I last used late September. Anyway, that's a new record for the last several years. I'm not even sure how long, but its been a long time since I've been off drugs for this length of time.
I last shot heroin Sunday morning 4 and a half weeks ago. I'd been using nearly every day for years up till then. Its been hard, but not as hard as I'd feared. Haven't had any illegal drug since, haven't even had alcohol. Just cigarettes and caffeine.
You can actually tell how much my addiction was fucking up my life by my posting history. You can see my posts get less frequent as I used more. Until 6 months ago when my addiction rendered me homeless with no regular internet access. And running around trying to make money for drugs was taking up my every waking moment. Literally almost every minute of every day was about heroin.
Then I decided I wanted to stop, and suddenly my posting frequency skyrockets.