I have been taking between 350-400 mg of oxycodone a day for about 2 years. Before that have been taking them for about 8 years, just around 30-60 my a day. I have finally got way out of control. I have been spending over 130k a year just on pills. I make good money, but even now i can hardly keep cash in my pocket. I want to be done all together so badly. I have tried to quit 4 times. Never made it this far. Even tried subs. But screwed that up pretty quick. They demanded i go to 12 meetings a month. I work full time. And have kids in sports. No way i was able to do that. So this time i got 74 hrs. But i just broke down and took 90mg. I have been puking for 2 days. I had a meeting i couldn't miss. So i tried 1. Didn't help at all. Did 2 and was still sick as heck, finally took a 3rd and was able to make it through the meeting. I can still feel the withdrawal, still have a fuzzy head, light headed, incredibly weak upset stomach. I just tried to eat a bit of vegetable soup, was able to get about 15 spoonfulls down. That's the first food in over 2 days. My question is how bad did i just set back my withdrawal? I know I screwed up here and should have just rode it out, i just couldn't miss this meeting. Is this going to completely restart the time table? It didn't stop the withdrawal entirely, the dose was equal or less than one normal dose i would take normally. Normally took 3-4 some times 5 30mg pills at a time. I snorted these as i normally do. Please don't beat me up too bad for the relapse. I really do want to stop, i know it's breaking me and my family. I just can't stop my life completely unfortunately. I am taking tomorrow off work again. I took all of today aside from the late meeting. Possibly taking the next day off too, I'll have to go in for a few hours minimum on Thursday. I dont intend too, or want to do anymore. I really have made the choice that this is the time. If any of you know if I'm completely screwed here and starting over right from the start, or if it will be a bit easier this time and hopefully shorter. The past 2 1/2 days have been rough, sipped a bit of apple juice, other wise ate nothing, puked every few hours, if i would finally fall asleep, I'd wake up to puke. I really hope this hasn't started all that over again. Thank you in advance. Sorry for the really long post, I just wanted to make sure I was specific.