itstartedwithakiss
Greenlighter
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Hi guys so sorry if this is in the wrong place but I was struggling to find where it should go.
Anyhow I've been coming on and off this site for the last 2 and a half years in a bid to try help and understand my partners heroin addiction. When I got with him I had no idea about it as he'd all but stopped at the time. Then when it all came to light I'd already fallen in love and it was too late by then. I'm a committed person and it's all or nothing with me. I genuinely thought I could help him. He did go a year taking nothing after we had our daughter but recently started again. I sometimes feel like I'm drowning in at all and losing him without any power to stop it. It got so bad last week and I wanted to understand it so badly that I ended up doing it myself. I guess it was a case if u can't beat them join them. I had 3 shots Sunday another 3 Monday and one last night as I felt really shit. Today I feel even shitter. My body is cramping up I feel more depressed than ever and just so sleepy and weak. Doubt it would be withdrawal already but regardless I feel terrible. I guess the reason I'm posting here is because I'm too ashamed to talk to anyone I know about it and if anyone else has experience of Living with an addict then maybe they'll understand why I did what I did and wether there really will ever be any hope of a normal relationship with him. Sorry for the long post
Dunno if it's worth mentioning I already have a mild addiction to prescription opiates: codeine, tramadol etc due to a spinal condition. If I miss doses I get shaky n sweaty n anxious and have been taking them a year now so don't know wether that's exasperated my symptoms
Anyhow I've been coming on and off this site for the last 2 and a half years in a bid to try help and understand my partners heroin addiction. When I got with him I had no idea about it as he'd all but stopped at the time. Then when it all came to light I'd already fallen in love and it was too late by then. I'm a committed person and it's all or nothing with me. I genuinely thought I could help him. He did go a year taking nothing after we had our daughter but recently started again. I sometimes feel like I'm drowning in at all and losing him without any power to stop it. It got so bad last week and I wanted to understand it so badly that I ended up doing it myself. I guess it was a case if u can't beat them join them. I had 3 shots Sunday another 3 Monday and one last night as I felt really shit. Today I feel even shitter. My body is cramping up I feel more depressed than ever and just so sleepy and weak. Doubt it would be withdrawal already but regardless I feel terrible. I guess the reason I'm posting here is because I'm too ashamed to talk to anyone I know about it and if anyone else has experience of Living with an addict then maybe they'll understand why I did what I did and wether there really will ever be any hope of a normal relationship with him. Sorry for the long post
Dunno if it's worth mentioning I already have a mild addiction to prescription opiates: codeine, tramadol etc due to a spinal condition. If I miss doses I get shaky n sweaty n anxious and have been taking them a year now so don't know wether that's exasperated my symptoms
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