Isabelljade
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Hi! I'm 18,Female.
So about 2 weeks ago I took just over half a gram of Mandy over 3 days, so did my boyfriend. We got it off my boyfriends bestfriend and cousin, so we think it was safe.
The Monday after fest we was both feeling really sad and cried at everything for no reason, the next day, he seemed normal where I had got worse. I felt like I couldn't be happy at all, non stop crying! Had to take days off work. I felt like I had no emotions or feelings, it felt like I didn't love my boyfriend no more. I started taking 5htp, and it was working, within a couple of days I felt a bit better, my emotions where still up and down.
It's been just over 2 weeks now, I can enjoy stuff and be happy now but still have times where I feel really down. But what's got worse now is everything feels like I'm in a dream state and nothing feels real. Everything in the past, including things that happened 5 minutes ago don't feel like that actually happened, like i imagined it. I tried taking 5htp again but it felt like it made me worse so I've stopped taking them.
My emotions and feelings are better but still not back to normal, I don't feel like I love my boyfriend as much as I did before festival and he doesn't feel like I'm the same person!
I've been eating healthy, drinking only orange juice and water, walking, sleeping well.
Will I get better? Have I caused perminate damage?? When will life feel real again?
Any advice is much appreciated, just wanna feel myself again.
So about 2 weeks ago I took just over half a gram of Mandy over 3 days, so did my boyfriend. We got it off my boyfriends bestfriend and cousin, so we think it was safe.
The Monday after fest we was both feeling really sad and cried at everything for no reason, the next day, he seemed normal where I had got worse. I felt like I couldn't be happy at all, non stop crying! Had to take days off work. I felt like I had no emotions or feelings, it felt like I didn't love my boyfriend no more. I started taking 5htp, and it was working, within a couple of days I felt a bit better, my emotions where still up and down.
It's been just over 2 weeks now, I can enjoy stuff and be happy now but still have times where I feel really down. But what's got worse now is everything feels like I'm in a dream state and nothing feels real. Everything in the past, including things that happened 5 minutes ago don't feel like that actually happened, like i imagined it. I tried taking 5htp again but it felt like it made me worse so I've stopped taking them.
My emotions and feelings are better but still not back to normal, I don't feel like I love my boyfriend as much as I did before festival and he doesn't feel like I'm the same person!
I've been eating healthy, drinking only orange juice and water, walking, sleeping well.
Will I get better? Have I caused perminate damage?? When will life feel real again?
Any advice is much appreciated, just wanna feel myself again.