Anxious
I have alot on my plate right now. Things I need to do but where to start... I gotta get outta bed .... I feel like I'm balancing on an edge . Maybe some soothing meditation music might help ....
Had a successful therapy appointment today. He even pointed out how "present" I am. That's because I haven't been ordering a certain RC to combat anxiety for many months. Can't afford to black out like that anymore. I refuse.
^Good on you , coast. Blackouts can be so destructive. And I love your determination--you acknowledge the temptation but refuse to let it change your course.
^Good on you , coast. Blackouts can be so destructive. And I love your determination--you acknowledge the temptation but refuse to let it change your course.
Thank you. That RC benzo almost killed me many times. It ruled me for a year or so. I thought I couldn't live without it at one point. It was enticing to be rid of anxiety and feel invincible, but the blackouts...extremely humiliating. Being in a relationship helps because I never want to blackout and lose control in front of my b/f.
Edit: Being in a relationship helps, but developing a relationship with God came first during my self-destructive RC benzo phase. That's when I became a believer. God is the only reason I'm still here. Had to give Him credit.