Tacodude -- Funny how life works sometimes. I actually went out and measured a 1/2 dose for myself right after I posted, but when I brought it back into the house, I discovered my wife was already awake, earlier than usual, to get ready for our flight. So I ditched the seeds down the toilet, read your reply and took 2 mg loperamide instead. That's all I took yesterday, besides some pot chocolate I brought along with me. I didn't drink any booze yesterday either, for the first time in 9 days, since I really started the taper in earnest.
It was a long day of travel, and we have a infant now with all the attendant baggage and support gear, but everything went as smoothly as you could ask. The little guy slept all the way there; even so, we were exhausted when we finally got to the house around midnight. I slept like a baby last night for the first time in weeks, 6 solid hours of sleep. I feel fantastic this morning: rested, clear-headed, 100% normal. I feel like myself again.
simco -- Sorry if I misused the word "chipping". I thought it referred generally to someone who believes they are using their DOC casually, recreationally, intermittently. You may be right that it normally refers to heroin, but I meant PST. Of course these things are easy to say, but I know I'll never use heroin. I'm old now, with no connections to that world, and my days of chasing waterfalls are over. The tea is much more suited for my lifestyle and temperament: slow onset and long-lasting, with gradual comedown that I don't even notice. More importantly, it completely arrests my desire to drink. In any event, I'll be away from it for the next 3 weeks, so I've got some time to think about how / whether it belongs in my life at all, given the fact that I let it slide into dependence over the course of 2017. It really snuck up on me.
Thank you both also for your impressions on SMART, AA, NA, PA. I guess there's no harm in trying a few. The 12 steps and higher power stuff really just turn me off. I've never been enough of a structured person to do 12 steps of anything
I'll look into local chapters when I get back. I know there's a SMART meeting once a week near my house, so it would be an easy first thing.