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It's 1230 I should be asleep but I'm fucking nervous. I got court tommorow for a misdemeanor paraphernalia charge. I don't have a huge record so I'm not going to jail or anything and it's not shit compared to what some of my friends have faced. I got a paid lawyer and I clean except for prescriptions so I did what I could do to mitigate.
I feel strongly about our cause and like this is just the price I signed up to pay I should take joy in fighting for freedom. I really feel like history will vindicate us all. I guess it's just my turn to be oppressed.
Mainly I just hope staying on methadone isn't a point of contention. Because taking me off methadone is akin to sentencing me to death. I really believe that. That's all I'm worried about. I got a benzo script and gabapentin script so I'm not worried about sobriety so much as I am my damn maintenance Meds.
Things like this make me wonder what I would do if faced with real oppression. Like nazi Germany's oppression. I watched this movie on YouTube about the White Rose. Basically some college kids in nazi Germany's started printing anti nazi fliers during 1943 and ended up being executed for it. The girl Sophie Scholl had the most amazing thing to say before being sent to the guilotine.
"How can we expect righteousness to prevail when hardly anyone is willing to give themselves up individually for a rightous cause. Such a fine sunny day, and I have to go but what does my death matter if through us thousands are awakened and stirred to action."
That is so inspiring to me. I'm not comparing my case to hers or anything but I am trying to remind myself that I have nothing to be ashamed of. I hurt no one I broke no moral code I subscribe to. I am simply being persecuted by an intolerant government for reasons I cannot hope to change. I am going to stand tall. I suggest you read about the White Rose if you haven't heard of them it's really inspiring stuff. Good movie on YouTube about it as well. Sophie Scholl last days it's called.
I feel strongly about our cause and like this is just the price I signed up to pay I should take joy in fighting for freedom. I really feel like history will vindicate us all. I guess it's just my turn to be oppressed.
Mainly I just hope staying on methadone isn't a point of contention. Because taking me off methadone is akin to sentencing me to death. I really believe that. That's all I'm worried about. I got a benzo script and gabapentin script so I'm not worried about sobriety so much as I am my damn maintenance Meds.
Things like this make me wonder what I would do if faced with real oppression. Like nazi Germany's oppression. I watched this movie on YouTube about the White Rose. Basically some college kids in nazi Germany's started printing anti nazi fliers during 1943 and ended up being executed for it. The girl Sophie Scholl had the most amazing thing to say before being sent to the guilotine.
"How can we expect righteousness to prevail when hardly anyone is willing to give themselves up individually for a rightous cause. Such a fine sunny day, and I have to go but what does my death matter if through us thousands are awakened and stirred to action."
That is so inspiring to me. I'm not comparing my case to hers or anything but I am trying to remind myself that I have nothing to be ashamed of. I hurt no one I broke no moral code I subscribe to. I am simply being persecuted by an intolerant government for reasons I cannot hope to change. I am going to stand tall. I suggest you read about the White Rose if you haven't heard of them it's really inspiring stuff. Good movie on YouTube about it as well. Sophie Scholl last days it's called.
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