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Addicted to Benzos again

Got down to 0.15mg yesterday, woke up today decided to make the cut to zero. Day one of no Diclazepam, quite afraid what may come as I am already going through some anxiety. I felt that extending my taper further may not be necessary as the threshold dose is around 0.25mg, almost a year long taper. It's going to be a long healing process
 
benzodmt said:
Got down to 0.15mg yesterday, woke up today decided to make the cut to zero. Day one of no Diclazepam, quite afraid what may come as I am already going through some anxiety. I felt that extending my taper further may not be necessary as the threshold dose is around 0.25mg, almost a year long taper. It's going to be a long healing process
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Hey,
I just read through your thread, rather quickly, but wow... you are one persistent dude! Amazing story of patience, persistence, strength... you will be able to draw upon this experience as you journey through life as a reminder to yourself you can do whatever you set your mind to!
 
This was an informative read, you are one persistent guy in your taper. I may have to use your method of diclaz to taper.
 
Thank you peeps.. I almost made it but after a day or two I caved in ended up taking 0.5mg diclazepam due to panic.. back down to 0.4mg...Planning to make no more than 0.1mg drop a month. I've learned my own body in this process.. even a minute dose you still feel the drop...

Messed up my taper a few times during the course however on each new attempt my starting dose became lower..


So here is the story so far..

Less than a year ago, a Week long binge on Etizolam. Woke up one morning realising I screwed up. And I was hopelessly addicted after a short term abuse I attempted to stabalise onto Diazepam after attempting to taper on Etizolam with no luck...45 mg stabilised me.. then I made a switch to Diclazepam an RC Benzodiazepine Diazepam analogs due to the cost and longer half life then continued my taper using a glycerol solution of 0.5/ml and 1mg/ml.

Last year I needed 45mg Diazepam. Or 4.5mg Diclazepam to achieve stability.

In September 2017, around 2mg Diazepam to 2.5mg. Diclazepam

Xmas 2017 around 1mg Diclazepam

Now 0.4mg Diclazepam.
 
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Good to hear you are making progress. Hang in there, the battle is only lost when we decide to quit fighting.
 
few weeks since last post, ive manged to reduce my dose of Diclazepam from 0.4mg to 0.3mg and so far my anxiety is pretty low , feeling no withdrawels in the last week and feel that this slower taper is working as planned so far, Should have this nailed by the end of July or beggining of august

Ive pasted my taper since November 2017, straight from a spreadsheet

Diclazepam/mg
2nd Nov2
3rd Nov1.8
Sat 4th Nov1.8
5th Nov1.8
6th Nov1.75
7th Nov1.75
8th Nov1.7
9th Nov1.65
10th Nov1.65
Sat 11th Nov1.65
12th Nov1.65
13th Nov1.6
14th Nov1.6
15th Nov1.6
16th Nov1.6
17th Nov1.6
Sat 18th Nov1.55
19th Nov1.55
20th Nov1.55
21st Nov1.5
22nd Nov1.5
23rd Nov1.5
24th Nov1.45
Sat 25th Nov1.45
26th Nov1.45
27th Nov1.45
28th Nov1.4
29th Nov1.35
30th Nov1.35
1st Dec1.35
Sat 2nd Dec1.35
3rd Dec1.35
4th Dec1.3
5th Dec1.3
6th Dec1.3
7th Dec1.3
8th Dec1.2
Sat 9th Dec1.2
10th Dec1.2
11th Dec1.2
12th Dec1.2
13th Dec1.2
14th Dec1.1
15th Dec1.1
Sat 16th Dec1.1
17th Dec1.1
18th Dec1.1
19th Dec1.1
20th Dec1.1
21st Dec1
22nd Dec1
Sat 23rd Dec1
24th Dec1
25th Dec1
26th Dec1
27th Dec0.9
28th Dec0.9
29th Dec0.9
Sat 30th Dec0.9
31st Dec0.9
1st Jan0.8
2nd Jan0.8
3rd Jan0.8
4th Jan0.8
5th Jan0.8
Sat 6th Jan0.8
7th Jan0.7
8th Jan0.7
9th Jan0.7
10th Jan0.7
11th Jan0.7
12th Jan2.7
Sat 13th Jan0
14th Jan0
15th Jan1.4
16th Jan0
17th Jan1.2
18th Jan2.4
19th Jan2
Sat 20th Jan1.9
21st Jan1.8
22nd Jan1.75
23rd Jan1.7
24th Jan1.65
25th Jan1.65
26th Jan1.6
Sat 27th Jan1.6
28th Jan1.55
29th Jan1.5
30th Jan1.4
31st Jan1.4
1st Feb1.4
2nd Feb1.4
Sat 3rd Feb1.4
4th Feb1.3
5th Feb1.3
6th Feb1.3
7th Feb1.3
8th Feb1.2
9th Feb1.2
Sat 10th Feb1.2
11th Feb1.2
12th Feb1.2
13th Feb1.15
14th Feb1.1
15th Feb1.1
16th Feb1.1
Sat 17th Feb1
18th Feb1
19th Feb1
20th Feb1
21st Feb1
22nd Feb1
23rd Feb0.9
Sat 24th Feb0.9
25th Feb0.9
26th Feb0.85
27th Feb0.85
28th Feb0.85
1st March0.85
2nd March0.8
Sat 3rd March0.8
4th March0.8
5th March0.75
6th March0.75
7th March0.7
8th March0.7
9th March0.7
Sat 10th March0.7
11th March0.7
12th March0.65
13th March0.65
14th March0.6
15th March0.6
16th March0.6
Sat 17th March0.6
18th March0.6
19th March0.6
20th March0.55
21st March0.55
22nd March0.5
23rd March0.5
Sat 24th March0.5
25th March0.5
26th March0.5
27th March0.5
28th March0.45
29th March0.45
30th March0.45
Sat 31st March0.4
1st April0.4
2nd April0.4
3rd April0.35
4th April0.35
5th April0.35
6th April0.35
Sat 7th April0.35
8th Aptil0.35
9th April0.35
10th April0.3
11th April0.3
12th April0.3
13th April0.3
Sat 14th April0.3
15th April0.25
16th April0.25
17th April0.25
18th April0.25
19th April0.25
20th April0.25
Sat 21st April0.2
22nd April0.2
23rd April0.2
24th April0.2
25th April0.2
26th April0.2
27th April0.15
Sat 28th April1
29th April0.4
30th April0.5
1st May0.45
2nd May0.45
3rd May0.45
4th May0.45
Sat 5th May0.425
6th May0.425
7th May0.425
8th May0.425
9th May0.4
10th May0.4
11th May0.4
Sat 12th May0.4
13th May0.4
14th May0.375
15th May0.375
16th May0.375
17th May0.375
18th May0.35
Sat 19th May0.35
20th May0.35
21st May0.35
22nd May0.35
23rd May0.325
24th May0.325
25th May0.325
Sat 26th May0.325
27th May
0.325
28th May0.3
 
Charting a steady course! Way to go. It's great to see the steps of the incremental progress add up.<3
 
benzodmt said:
0.3mg of Diclazepam , sleep is terrible, anxiety not good. boy this is a bitch.
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You're telling me eh bud.

60mg daily etizolam habit / 30mg xan after many years. Way too much klonopin, valium, bromazepam, lorazepam as well but I've ended up stuck on the short acting ones. Fuck etizolam though imo.

I'm low right now I lost all my connects ALL of them the same week I was loaded with cash for them no dice and I was NEVER this scared in heroin withdrawal EVER. Sure it's a bitch but it's the seizure thing that fucks with me. How I could drop dead at any moment. I have a day supply. I hope I live to see the end of the week as I will have a gram of alprazolam to work with then. I don't mind the interdose withdrawals and the suffering. I mind being so low on the shit that my life is at risk. I'm getting my dose down but it's fucking hell on earth. I honestly just pray to the sky that I live to see Friday this week.
 
ShroomySatori said:
You're telling me eh bud.

60mg daily etizolam habit / 30mg xan after many years. Way too much klonopin, valium, bromazepam, lorazepam as well but I've ended up stuck on the short acting ones. Fuck etizolam though imo.

I'm low right now I lost all my connects ALL of them the same week I was loaded with cash for them no dice and I was NEVER this scared in heroin withdrawal EVER. Sure it's a bitch but it's the seizure thing that fucks with me. How I could drop dead at any moment. I have a day supply. I hope I live to see the end of the week as I will have a gram of alprazolam to work with then. I don't mind the interdose withdrawals and the suffering. I mind being so low on the shit that my life is at risk. I'm getting my dose down but it's fucking hell on earth. I honestly just pray to the sky that I live to see Friday this week.
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Brother, get help.. Going cold turkey off that heavy of dose is almost guaranteed to send you into seizure... Is there anyone around?
 
to shroomysatori , same advise as Mafioso if life is threatened go straight to Hospital please... !!that is a crazy ammount of benzo and your risk is through the roof, please pester them if you have to , your life is more important.
 
Just an update :p
Diclazepam /mg
2nd Nov2
3rd Nov1.8
Sat 4th Nov1.8
5th Nov1.8
6th Nov1.75
7th Nov1.75
8th Nov1.7
9th Nov1.65
10th Nov1.65
Sat 11th Nov1.65
12th Nov1.65
13th Nov1.6
14th Nov1.6
15th Nov1.6
16th Nov1.6
17th Nov1.6
Sat 18th Nov1.55
19th Nov1.55
20th Nov1.55
21st Nov1.5
22nd Nov1.5
23rd Nov1.5
24th Nov1.45
Sat 25th Nov1.45
26th Nov1.45
27th Nov1.45
28th Nov1.4
29th Nov1.35
30th Nov1.35
1st Dec1.35
Sat 2nd Dec1.35
3rd Dec1.35
4th Dec1.3
5th Dec1.3
6th Dec1.3
7th Dec1.3
8th Dec1.2
Sat 9th Dec1.2
10th Dec1.2
11th Dec1.2
12th Dec1.2
13th Dec1.2
14th Dec1.1
15th Dec1.1
Sat 16th Dec1.1
17th Dec1.1
18th Dec1.1
19th Dec1.1
20th Dec1.1
21st Dec1
22nd Dec1
Sat 23rd Dec1
24th Dec1
25th Dec1
26th Dec1
27th Dec0.9
28th Dec0.9
29th Dec0.9
Sat 30th Dec0.9
31st Dec0.9
1st Jan0.8
2nd Jan0.8
3rd Jan0.8
4th Jan0.8
5th Jan0.8
Sat 6th Jan0.8
7th Jan0.7
8th Jan0.7
9th Jan0.7
10th Jan0.7
11th Jan0.7
12th Jan2.7
Sat 13th Jan0
14th Jan0
15th Jan1.4
16th Jan0
17th Jan1.2
18th Jan2.4
19th Jan2
Sat 20th Jan1.9
21st Jan1.8
22nd Jan1.75
23rd Jan1.7
24th Jan1.65
25th Jan1.65
26th Jan1.6
Sat 27th Jan1.6
28th Jan1.55
29th Jan1.5
30th Jan1.4
31st Jan1.4
1st Feb1.4
2nd Feb1.4
Sat 3rd Feb1.4
4th Feb1.3
5th Feb1.3
6th Feb1.3
7th Feb1.3
8th Feb1.2
9th Feb1.2
Sat 10th Feb1.2
11th Feb1.2
12th Feb1.2
13th Feb1.15
14th Feb1.1
15th Feb1.1
16th Feb1.1
Sat 17th Feb1
18th Feb1
19th Feb1
20th Feb1
21st Feb1
22nd Feb1
23rd Feb0.9
Sat 24th Feb0.9
25th Feb0.9
26th Feb0.85
27th Feb0.85
28th Feb0.85
1st March0.85
2nd March0.8
Sat 3rd March0.8
4th March0.8
5th March0.75
6th March0.75
7th March0.7
8th March0.7
9th March0.7
Sat 10th March0.7
11th March0.7
12th March0.65
13th March0.65
14th March0.6
15th March0.6
16th March0.6
Sat 17th March0.6
18th March0.6
19th March0.6
20th March0.55
21st March0.55
22nd March0.5
23rd March0.5
Sat 24th March0.5
25th March0.5
26th March0.5
27th March0.5
28th March0.45
29th March0.45
30th March0.45
Sat 31st March0.4
1st April0.4
2nd April0.4
3rd April0.35
4th April0.35
5th April0.35
6th April0.35
Sat 7th April0.35
8th Aptil0.35
9th April0.35
10th April0.3
11th April0.3
12th April0.3
13th April0.3
Sat 14th April0.3
15th April0.25
16th April0.25
17th April0.25
18th April0.25
19th April0.25
20th April0.25
Sat 21st April0.2
22nd April0.2
23rd April0.2
24th April0.2
25th April0.2
26th April0.2
27th April0.15
Sat 28th April1
29th April0.4
30th April0.5
1st May0.45
2nd May0.45
3rd May0.45
4th May0.45
Sat 5th May0.425
6th May0.425
7th May0.425
8th May0.425
9th May0.4
10th May0.4
11th May0.4
Sat 12th May0.4
13th May0.4
14th May0.375
15th May0.375
16th May0.375
17th May0.375
18th May0.35
Sat 19th May0.35
20th May0.35
21st May0.35
22nd May0.35
23rd May0.325
24th May0.325
25th May0.325
Sat 26th May0.325
27th May
0.325
28th May0.3
29th May0.3
30th May0.3
31st May0.3
1st June0.3
Sat 2nd June0.275
3rd June0.275
4th June0.275
5th June0.275
6th June0.275
7th June0.25
8th June0.25
Sat 9th June0.25
10th June0.25
11th June0.25
12th June0.225
13th June0.225

14th June0.225
15th June0.225
Sat 16th June
0.2
17th June0.2
18th June0.2
19th June0.2
20th June0.2
21st June0.175
22nd June0.175
Sat 23rd June0.15
24th June0.15
25th June0.15
26th June0.15
27th June0.125
28th June0.125
29th June0.125
Sat 30th June0.1
1st July0.1
2nd July0.1
3rd July0.1

4th July 0.1
5th July 0.1
6th 0.075
 
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right down to 0.075mg of Diclazepam (under 1mg Diazepam approx) what are people opinions of simply cutting now, will I notice it . is it wise?.
 
Congrats on your progress.

Not familiar with diclazepam and the doses... how do you feel right now? Are you feeling any effects when you take your current dose of .075mg?

I would guess that the WDs would be fairly minimal at this point. If you aren't really feeling WDs in between doses then it's likely that the overall withdrawals won't be that bad.
 
Thanks Mafioso , I decided to Jump off a few days ago and feel fine, looks like ive nailed it after a year , the thing is I never felt any real effect from any of my Diclazepam doses it was just enough to keep me from rebound .I say this again , NEver again take benzos lets hope I keep to it this time, Thanks everyone , no matter how hard it may feel you can all beat this shit
 
Fantastic work, benzodmt! Great self-discpline. :) This should give hope to anyone suffering from benzo addiction. A long, slow and steady taper can get you off them with minimal suffering.
 
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