EDIT: forgot. The night before, I IV'd bupe (crystal clear) and hit something in my arm that caused a swelling in the arm I got my BP tested in. The swelling was (is, but not as much) right in the middle of my arm, at the - is there even an English word for this?) - opposite side of the elbow. Blood went into the syringe so it was at least partway in a vein, and I probably messed up the vein. It was not an infection (no red nor warmth). I obviously couldn't tell them. Could this have affected the BP-testing?
Hey, guys. I need your advice. But I have to be honest: I'm not going to stop using drugs, now. I (up until very recently) was going "this is the last time I'm buying it" every single time I went to get more. Now I've realized ... as long as I'm in the current situation, I will keep doing this. I hope to get somewhere to live through my diagnosis (HFA/AS), or at least I'm pretending to - my mother believes it (since the social service people want me to) and while, I can live at her place. It's sad for my age, but I prefer being sad, rather than sleeping outside, begging for money on the subways et cetera. Whenever I get someplace to live, I'll manage to get clean. If I manage to stay clean, however ...
So: yesterday, saturday, I hadn't used amphetamine for like 18-24 hours. Before, when I lived in the treatment center, during the summer, autumn and late winter of 2017, I could have "heart" (chest) pain for more than 24 hours, but I don't get crazy pain any more. The heart can rush, and I get panic, but nothing like before.
However, THEN, when I had such pain I literally thought I was going to die, I usually had a high but not seriously problematic blood pressure, except for a few times, like when I created this thread.
Yesterday, I didn't feel completely fine, but I had been shopping sweets and made a small reunion for my family, et cetera without feeling pain. Yet I tested like 190/151. Well, then I got anxious and it rose to 210. I had started sweating et cetera (this is not weird, for me - even completely sober and clean, I'm constantly too warm and especially after eating), and now I really felt my BP (I feel it it my hands), and took my mother's bicycle home. I called the [medical advice when not in life-threatening situations] and she told me it's not acutely life-threatening, but that I should call and then visit the "acute hospital"* in the next 24 hours. I have done that like ... how many times? I can't even count. It's a while ago now, though, but ... doing the same thing over and over again, expecting a different result every time, is ... well, I just couldn't be assed.
As I always have one post from here in mind - the acute risk with high BP is more likely to be stroke than a heart attack, and that it would leave me like vegetable. That's my nightmare, and that's why I don't take amounts that makes my chest ache like hell anymore.
But after a cigarette, I got a headache, and felt my arms/hands numbing .. .the latter has happened like every time before visiting ambulance/ER, and it was never a problem, but never before in combination with a headache ... so I broke my rule of never IVing without (micron) filtering again, as I had no time (in my mind), and IV'd alprazolam.
It wasn't much, and Alprazolam isn't even that physical (it has very weak anti-convulsant/epileptic effect, so I usually get Clonazepam) and yet it completely healed me. I googled "stroke symptoms" and I realized it was very unlikely that I had one - I did 5 small tests with my brother and I managed them all. I feel asleep for some hours.
Now, I took a shitload of amph just a few hours ago, and while my BP is too high, like 150/100, it's not deadly and it's reasonable, given that I just used.
I typed "How was this 210/ pressure possible?" but realized that it's too obvious to ask.
But I'm really wondering: how could my BP be higher than ever, when I felt physically fine, and I hadn't used amphetamine for a day ... when previously my max was 199/, it felt like torture and was the same day, and I was sure of dieing?
This BP incident, however, happened right after eating a shitload of sweets (I'm dieting, so whenever I cheat, I go crazy), drinking a cup of black coffee and then smoking a cigarette.
I forgot to add: the first time yesterday I tested 156/110, just a few minutes before the above 210/. It's still way off the chart, but for me it's not crazy.
TLDR:
Friday: amphetamine.
Sleep 6-8 hours.
Saturday: I staged a family renunion, ate a ton of sweets, lay down for 2-3 minutes, tested 156/110, drank coffee, smoke a cigarette, and then I sat up and tested 190/151, got anxious and pissed off (at my relatives who wouldn't understand me - I wouldn't either, probably, if I were them) and got 210. Got home, smoke a cigarette. IV'd Alprazolam. Feel asleep for a few hours and then woke up, feeling just fine.
Sunday: took amph. Still lower BP than saturday. I didn't eat today, and won't, and I haven't smoked a cigarette yet, but I will. I have been having some coffee, though.
So: the BP, the rise to 210 ... is it likely the amphetamine from the day before, or a combo of that + food/coffee/cigarette? Well ... stupid question, as every thing we do or accomplish (whether it means getting struck by lightning, becoming President of the US, finishing college, getting laid, or being bulled) is because of a combination of everything we've done up to that point. Rather: what is the main cause of the effect? If it was the amphetamine I should be having 210 often, and I don't.
And: how dangerous is this? Shouldn't I feel bad if I have skyrocket high BP?
Finally: the cuff around my arm when measuring BP, felt tighter than ever. I thought my hand was going to burst from all the blood that got stuck? What is the probable cause and effect here? Did it feel like that because of my high BP, or could it be so tight/hard that it caused a local skyrocketed BP?