Bluebird78
Greenlighter
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- Jun 6, 2017
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- 28
Ok, so detoxed from dilaudid with percocet, not the best idea, but it sorta worked. Down to about 3 percs a day. Problem, im getting 90 more dilaudid 4mg tomorrow. I dont know how to resist. Sober for 16 years off iv heroin. Life without drugs is so much easier. I feel lime i spend my time doing math to plan a taper, which obviously never works. I could write a textbook on addiction quotes. One day at a time and shit. I have sooooo much to lose this time around. I know i have willpower. But damn those dilaudid are intoxicating. Any advice thats not some 12,step quote appreciated. I cant hold off on the script bc its not mine. I am also doing this completely alone. No one knows anything.... They think im just sick! I miss being "normal". And for some reason this actually seemed worse that my heroin withdrawals many many moons ago. Oh andmy legs hurt soooo fucking bad! I yake 12 xanax and 10 valium to aleep at night. Also im a cancer survivor, and i genuinely want to live as along as i can, not snorting drugs every day. Help please