Hey all, I am laying down just thinking about how fucked up this is. I am a general opiate addict (I've done about 8 years of pills, Methdose, Oxys, Norco, whatever I could get my hands on). I am a college educated mother of two boys, and just cannot stay off any off this stuff. My last run was on black, and has lasted about a year, ending at 1.5 Gs per day. I have lost everything to this stuff. I used to be successful and healthy, and now I feel like an old junkie that has not much to live for. My kids still come around, but I never have enough money to take them out to great places anymore because I spend it all on dope. I can't hold a job, as I am either trying not to use and too sick to work, or nodding out. I have few friends and not much of a life left.
Ok, so I decided to detox again. I live alone, and have been taking Immodium, Valium, and a bit of Suboxzon that I had from the last time I did this.It is not enough, and I am sweating/chills, weak, restless, and mentally crawling the walls. I don't have the money to get more Subs. I am on day three and getting more and more anxious as the day goes by. Can anyone tell me about their experience on kicking this shit? Some tips? I have been talking and texring with friends but it saps the life out of me. I hear the outside world out there, and it feels like I will never be off this bed again, ever. Thank you, and God Bless to any responders. I promise to update my progress. Of course the connect called yesterday, and if I didn't smell. look and feel so bad, I probably would have gone to see him. Another problem: I have a good connect that is kind of a friend, always comes when I call and will front me big. Thanks you guys! Dope Girl
Ok, so I decided to detox again. I live alone, and have been taking Immodium, Valium, and a bit of Suboxzon that I had from the last time I did this.It is not enough, and I am sweating/chills, weak, restless, and mentally crawling the walls. I don't have the money to get more Subs. I am on day three and getting more and more anxious as the day goes by. Can anyone tell me about their experience on kicking this shit? Some tips? I have been talking and texring with friends but it saps the life out of me. I hear the outside world out there, and it feels like I will never be off this bed again, ever. Thank you, and God Bless to any responders. I promise to update my progress. Of course the connect called yesterday, and if I didn't smell. look and feel so bad, I probably would have gone to see him. Another problem: I have a good connect that is kind of a friend, always comes when I call and will front me big. Thanks you guys! Dope Girl