Newbie here. Back on the gear and looking for a place to discuss it.

[Foiled Again]

Hi I've just hit the gear again after 4 years clean. Heroin is my drug of choice and had taken it on and off (mostly on) from my early 20's to my early 40's. I got clean after a long period on Methadone with a very gradually reducing script.
Everything was going fine until a four or five weeks ago. I gave up smoking cigarettes and whilst experiencing a huge craving I happened to see my old smack dealer. One thing lead to another and now I'm taking gear again on a daily basis. I am still not smoking cigarettes though so there is a plus.
As it stands now I am waiting for an appointment with a doctor when I hope I will be given another methadone script and I can start stopping again. Appointment is in a few days but I am freaking out. Hopefully things will be ok as I haven't been back on it long and I'm not doing a great deal of it (though it is creeping up). Also I am only smoking it. I used to inject in the bad old days but fucked up most of my available veins.
Right now I am trying to be honest about it with my partner. I have told her pretty much everything and she is upset but would rather I was honest.
Really just freaking out and looking for people to share experiences with who know something of what it's like.

 

[G.R.S.H.]

There are lots of threads on here that you could read through while you wait for a response from someone (I take opiates, but have no experience with h) that has been / is in, you shoes. I spent a lot of time in the Dark Side forms and have read a lot from people going through what you describe. Maybe take a look there. I wish you the best of luck!

 

[Foiled Again]

Thanks. I'll have a look at Dark Side and thanks for the well wishes.

 

[walcity]

Hiya foiled again don't know where your from but I got clean moved 200 miles new job new gaff etc thought I'd kicked heroin then travelled back to see family ended up having a few pints next thing I'm smoking crack with some Bird wired to death needed brown so fuckd it back on a script that was 4yrs ago I'm 46 crack as always been my problem there like Apple pie n custurd brown n white I'm actually sat sniffing Charlie cos the drugs are shite in Scotland waiting on my parcel from God country sos talking shite now good luck