FunctionlJnkieGal
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Dec 9, 2015
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I'd have to go with drugs (my DOC being MS Contin). Yeah sex is great, an orgasm peaks for all of few seconds, but then everything is back to normal again and your man or woman rolls over and is done with you. Plus sex tends to get bland, infrequent, and less meaningful after you've been in a relationships for several years. Once the excitement of getting to know somebody is gone, its gone. Like chasing the dragon, chasing the spark of a budding relationship will forever be a chase for the love that was lost immediately after it was captured. From then on you only notice things you hate about eachother and start to question their loyalty. Also, if you feel that the person you love isn't reciprocating your feelings, you could be heartbroken beyond repair. Worst case scenario you could get cheated on, get a disease, and unwanted pregnancy could result. Masturbation gets boring after a while too, especially if you're doing it mostly because the other person is rarely in the mood. Drugs, however, won't become less attracted to you and it won't deprive you from getting your fill as long as its available and you got the cash. They won't hurt your feelings or cheat on you. They don't need reciprocation. In my experience, they are far more reliable when it comes to cheering me up and making me feel better in general. They are there to soothe my emotional pain when my significant other makes me feel worthless, unattractive, and unloved. I don't need to prove my worth to drugs. I'm always good enough for them and drugs are never "not in the mood". Maybe I'm pathetic for preferring drugs over sex, but sex/love (or maybe lack of it?) has caused me about as much emotional distress as opiate withdrawal. In other words, I can depend more on drugs for my emotional support than sex and so-called "true love"...whatever the fuck that is. If you get sober, drugs will ALWAYS be there waiting for you to come back. You can't always say the same thing about a significant other, if even if you do prove your worth to them by getting clean.