Weaning and trying to get clean off rx opiates

[Awesome-O89]

Oookkk... so, I am an opiate addict. I have been for about six years. I take anywhere from 100-200mg of hydrocodone or 150mg of oxycodone daily if I have the money. 40mg of either to feel well after getting sick. I get sick within 8 hours of last dosing. I've used heroin in the past but no longer have access, thankfully. I need to get clean, but I still have a great job, a dog, and I can't leave that to go to treatment. I literally only have two people who know I use. I get a script for 50 oxycodone from my Dr monthly. I've had back surgery and whatever else health problems that spurred my addiction. I need help getting clean on the down low. I can't keep this up. I need help, but I need to keep my life. Any way to do this?? Who can give me advise? I have about 50 30mg codeine until I get my next script in 1.5 weeks. I need to not live this life anymore. I'm done but can't step away from my responsibilities and am too ashamed to admit to friends and family that I'm an addict.

 

[thedawn]

hi,I do not think your loved ones will judge you as hard as you think.
Most likely they already know somethings up. We think we're so clever hiding it, but people get the vibe.

The way to keep your life is probably tell your most trusted since this is horrible to keep to yourself and see a specialist , a psychiatrist, who can prescribe Suboxone.
If you go on suboxone taper, NOT maintenance you'll be good to work and fulfill your responsibilities while taking care of yourself.
100-200mg of Vicodin daily poisons your live with tylenol too, I would suggest getting help and perhaps suboxone sooner than later.
It saved me. Massive luck. Remember these are only my suggestions, someone else might be more helpful.

 

[Dutch80]

Hi

It's completely up to you but I'm on day 8 of my wd from 400-600mg of tramadol a day without anyone knowing, started last Saturday cold turkey and went to work as normal saying I was hungover, first 4 days were hard, I used 30mg co-codamol to help ease the pain.....I'm now feeling alot better thank goodness

Imo it's a personal battle that you need to come to terms with in your own head get that right and you're home in a boat... And tbh I couldn't have coped with any sympathy.

 

[johnnypotsmoker199]

Oookkk... so, I am an opiate addict. I have been for about six years. I take anywhere from 100-200mg of hydrocodone or 150mg of oxycodone daily if I have the money. 40mg of either to feel well after getting sick. I get sick within 8 hours of last dosing. I've used heroin in the past but no longer have access, thankfully. I need to get clean, but I still have a great job, a dog, and I can't leave that to go to treatment. I literally only have two people who know I use. I get a script for 50 oxycodone from my Dr monthly. I've had back surgery and whatever else health problems that spurred my addiction. I need help getting clean on the down low. I can't keep this up. I need help, but I need to keep my life. Any way to do this?? Who can give me advise? I have about 50 30mg codeine until I get my next script in 1.5 weeks. I need to not live this life anymore. I'm done but can't step away from my responsibilities and am too ashamed to admit to friends and family that I'm an addict.

Try going to a local rehab or visiting a doctor who can offer you suboxone.

It will still assist with the pain, less habit forming and allow you to detox.

You can step down from there.

 

[placid space]

I think he said he wishes to be done quietly.
Id suggest maybe asking your doc to lower your dosage, tapering off is not difficult. You can get off of 150 in a month (or two, if you have too many problems sweating a lot,difficult sleeping and yawning etc..). Or ask for help one of those two people who know you use or tell someone you trust. Give them control over your pills and tell them how to distribute them to you, lowering the dose every few days by x amount. And let them give you an option if you chose, 1x a week to use a bit more to take the edge off. But that stops after first few weeks. I found that useful. No reason for cold turkeys or relentless tapering. Often just builds up anxiety and accumulates tensions and a spiral of thougths about using.
And as youre getting clean, definitely keep your weekends busy, best to go somewhere, like hiking with your dog or sth, make sure you have plans for the next half year at least. Dont leave any free time where you might get bored and start overthinking things rationalizing maybe using. That always leads back to sh+t.

 

[johnnypotsmoker199]

You can take benzos to detox if you want to do it quietly.

 

[Brote125]

Yeah if you really want to get clean I would say tell your doc you want to taper down. Problem with that is if you change your mind or believe you still need them for actual pain in might be tough getting your doc to up your script again. If you have someone to dole them out that'd be good. I couldn't imagine getting clean if I was getting a script. Just having them sitting in the medicine cabinet or down the street at the pharmacy would cause me to relapse. Takes a lot of willpower to be getting them free or cheap and not take them.

Anyway I've been clean less than a month but what I did was taper way down and used kratom. I work 6 days a week and it wasn't too bad after the taper and with the kratom. My advice is if you're positive you want to get clean get one more script for tapering and then cancel it with the doctor. If it wasn't for the fact that I had to go to the street to get em I couldn't do it. Too much temptation.

* by the way I was doing just about what you were. 100-120mgs daily. Slow taper down to 20mgs spread out over a whole day then quit. I kept working and I don't think anyone noticed. You can definitely do it.