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How high are you? v. Summertime: livin is easy

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Pill2Chill said:
5am AGAIN. Thats 7 days now during which I've barely slept a few hours. . sigh. Today was the first day I managed to eat anything in all that time too.

/end rant

OT: 24mg bromazepam like 5 hrs ago.
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You can never go wrong with bromazepam.. hope it helps u going thru this nightmare phase..
 
Speed King said:
My last post plus,

600 mg pregabalin
200 mg's l-theanine
3 mg's melatonin
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Do you have the time release? We might have the same melatonin lol, 3mg time release. Weird amount for the mechanism. I need to take 2 and at least a 1mg of etiz/xanax to get even a nap right now.

OT: Woke up with tremors so I quickly threw 2mg sub under the tongue and 1mg etizolam. The tremors and shakes seem to be my most prominent wd symptom. Which is why I'm scared to death about tackling my benzos addiction next. Seizure city.
 
What dose were you at? If it's too high to kick c/t you ought to really seek emergency medical attention eventhough I understand it's difficult to take that step. You don't want seizures man..

Yeah, lately not much 'happy' posts in here. Oh well, I hope to be out of withdrawal hell soon..

OT: 24mg bromazepam. Eating a real meal for the first time in 8 days. It helps, also I've got a pretty good appetite which I didn't expect until I started eating.
 
Pill2Chill said:
What dose were you at? If it's too high to kick c/t you ought to really seek emergency medical attention eventhough I understand it's difficult to take that step. You don't want seizures man..

Yeah, lately not much 'happy' posts in here. Oh well, I hope to be out of withdrawal hell soon..

OT: 24mg bromazepam. Eating a real meal for the first time in 8 days. It helps, also I've got a pretty good appetite which I didn't expect until I started eating.
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I normally mix my benzos so I don't have a clear cut answer. A bar is barely noticeable, as is 30mg of valium or 6mg of etizolam. I don't even get high off them anymore, just well. So yeah you're right I'll probably do inpatient for that. I'm currently tapering. Yesterday I managed to only dose once, but like I said I woke up feeling like I was about to seize up.

Our healthcare is so fucked up right now though that a day's worth of phonecalls and transfer after transfer yielded me no results. I'm still trying though.

I'm feeling decent today though, my appetite is slowly returning as well. For once I actually want to get up and seek food. We got this shit, I believe in everyone here who is struggling.

OT: 2mg sub still kicking, I actually FELT it today though so I'm cutting to 1mg tomorrow.
 
Kratom morning dose 3 mg. Man I love this drug but worried about the possible contaminants from asia. Pesticides heavy metals etc. When u dose large amounts of raw leaf everyday it's hard not to think about it
 
Joe Bean said:
Ya my family member is a (nurse) so she knows it all (...)

I plan on talking to my doc this next time he knows about my family and that I would like to try sober life but he's affraid my back won't take it. I'm also affraid of that too!
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Idk how old you are and whether you depend on your parents or not. But it's your life no matter how specialist others might be. If you think you need a replacement therapy bacause of your back, you should be able to do what's best for you. People hardly quit drugs or keep on sober unless if this is what they want. You can't really "force" anyone to follow plans other than what you feel it's better for you. That's one of the reasons so many people don't follow through IME.
 
devilsgospel said:
I normally mix my benzos so I don't have a clear cut answer. A bar is barely noticeable, as is 30mg of valium or 6mg of etizolam. I don't even get high off them anymore, just well. So yeah you're right I'll probably do inpatient for that. I'm currently tapering. Yesterday I managed to only dose once, but like I said I woke up feeling like I was about to seize up.
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Why are you tapering so fast? I only ask because you seemed to be doing well like a week ago (regarding not being in WD). Obviously only you know the full extent of your situation, I suppose you have your reasons but maybe you could make it a bit easier for yourself.

A slow taper (especially for benzos) is really ideal, decreasing your dose too fast can cause you to have long lasting damage, even if it might not be as evident as if you were to have something more extreme like a seizure, it could be pretty bad.
Same goes for opiates, even though the main WD isn't as dangerous, many people suffer from PAWS when quitting too fast and that could make it harder to stay sober in the future. Sometimes PAWS are unavoidable but I believe it's possible to reduce their intensity a lot with a proper taper.

Anyway, best of luck to everyone who posts in this thread!

OT: had the same as yesterday but a bit less. I don't really feel the amps too much anymore, mainly high on kratom and residual alprazolam. Also weed, I'm about to finish a spliff.
 
devilsgospel said:
Do you have the time release? We might have the same melatonin lol, 3mg time release. Weird amount for the mechanism. I need to take 2 and at least a 1mg of etiz/xanax to get even a nap right now.

OT: Woke up with tremors so I quickly threw 2mg sub under the tongue and 1mg etizolam. The tremors and shakes seem to be my most prominent wd symptom. Which is why I'm scared to death about tackling my benzos addiction next. Seizure city.
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Benzodiazepine withdrawal sucks in general, but the "slower" you withdraw, you will have a easier time and definitely lower the seizure risk.
You have to work at it though. The stricter you control your medication during your withdrawal, the easer it will be. There is no real shortcut.

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200 mg anhydrous caffeine
10 mg's IR Dextroamphetamine
150 mg pregabalin

Smooth and awake, but nothing special :)
 
Thanks for the info guys. I guess I'm just in a hurry to put all this behind me and get back to real life. I'm jobless and addicted, which needs no more clarification I'm sure. I should take it slower and my company agrees. I want to get back to the woman I love as well.

Could you guys recommend a better routine? I'm sustaining on the lowest possible doses. I've been playing it by ear, if I can feel the drug, it's time to cut down. Maybe I could draw it out a bit more? Right now I dose as needed. Once wd creeps up, I dose.

OT: got shaky and dozed 1.5mg etizzy
 
devilsgospel said:
Thanks for the info guys. I guess I'm just in a hurry to put all this behind me and get back to real life. I'm jobless and addicted, which needs no more clarification I'm sure. I should take it slower and my company agrees. I want to get back to the woman I love as well.

Could you guys recommend a better routine? I'm sustaining on the lowest possible doses. I've been playing it by ear, if I can feel the drug, it's time to cut down. Maybe I could draw it out a bit more? Right now I dose as needed. Once wd creeps up, I dose.

OT: got shaky and dozed 1.5mg etizzy
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Most of us probably don't have the right advice...otherwise we'd be sober instead of fucking up our relationships and careers by taking drugs past the once and a while or social occasion type of usuage into everyday use and dangerous levels of use.

I struggle with not being able to avoid usage whenever even the slightest thing goes wrong.

I seriously wonder if I can ever stop. I can see things unraveling for me this time professionally....in my 20s I never saw the consequences coming such as failed relationships or ruined jobs. At least now in my 30s I have foresight...being able to do anything about it and stop...not so much.

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No drugs cuz work tomorrow...but I'm sure that on wed or Thursday night I will consume enough alcohol to cause brain damage for no apparent reason despite having to work the following day.
 
devilsgospel, you mentioned not getting anywhere by phone. A clinic wants a referral (their version of proof) that you are an addict who needs help. If you haven't asked them yet, find out what sort of referral you need. Whether it's your general practicioner, or a psychiatrist, whoever... Then get that appointment made within the week. Hopefully it only takes one visit to establish that this is an ASAP thing. Consider doing it dopesick, too, for added effect, why not?

Express your concerns and try to get on a banjo taper schedule. I can't promise you that you'll be walking into the clinic two days from now, but it's better than getting arrested or going to the ER for a script.

right now I'm pretty stoned, took an evening nap. time to relax for a moment before the week hits.
 
@LSD: at least we all have something in common, being fucked and all. What a wonderful band of degenerates we are, in a way it makes me feel okay. Hopefully you too bud. Probably not, but I've never been good with people lmao. Well wishes to you my friend.

@STH: it's a wonder that a stranger in Oregon knows more about how to help me than the 50 actual dumbass places I called. You're a wonderful person, never change you wonderful ways.

OT: 2mg Xanax, 1.5mg etizolam, 6mg melatonin, gaba & tyrosine supps. Hell, maybe I'll get some sleep tonight? (Unlikely)
 
Glad to hear buddy, thank you
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. And by the way, I was kind of off base a little bit. By referral I meant prescription, so asking for what kind of Rx you need isn't too helpful. It sounds like the people you encountered so far were desk jockeys far too worthless to do their job and help a fellow out. I've never completed the process of registering with a clininc but I'm 99% sure it requires a visit to the doctor first to give you a prescription.

I wish Methacodone were here to elaborate.

OT: boutta smoke more WEED
 
Picking up my methadone in about an hour. Damn I feel like shit, this ought to help
/E: dwaiting for it to kick in. (140mg methadone)
*premature sigh of relief*

/E2: AHHH *Actual sigh of relief* (And I got a strong nod going on).

Damn Man I really needed that. I'm just gonna hit post now because this last edit (yup, just this paragraph lol :D litterally taken me an *HOUR* to write down. (Not that it was unpleasant, but still hahah). I snapped out of it right before faceplanting into my ashtray at one point. That'd been nasty;

Be back when I'm coherent. Peace.
 
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Had 30 ml of ethanol in the form of fermented garbage (aka pint of beer), and 1 g of codeine. Gonna crack another beer right about now.
 
SirTophamHat said:
Glad to hear buddy, thank you
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. And by the way, I was kind of off base a little bit. By referral I meant prescription, so asking for what kind of Rx you need isn't too helpful. It sounds like the people you encountered so far were desk jockeys far too worthless to do their job and help a fellow out. I've never completed the process of registering with a clininc but I'm 99% sure it requires a visit to the doctor first to give you a prescription.

I wish Methacodone were here to elaborate.

OT: boutta smoke more WEED
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I'm supposed to see a psych very soon so hopefully that will set all of this in motion. I had an appointment for tomorrow but it was with insurance I no longer have. Once again, thanks for the help buddy.

Also yeah, I've noticed Metha's absence too. I hope he's okay. Hoping he just went to rehab or something or got tired of BL.

Glad to hear you're doing well though P2C. The wd blues are over for ya, with that sweet sweet script of yours. 140mg, you lucky bastard lol. Floating on a cloud I imagine.

It's odd, I figured I'd be triggered as fuck here but I'm mostly stable. Even with dope accessible to me at my place. As in MY house. Still have a bag over there.

OT: last 2mg sub piece, which I feel is giving me some stimulation
 
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