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I keep reading lists that journalists with no knowledge or first hand experience have made re. the most dangerous drugs around. I have also read a few forum threads on the same topic. I personally have not agreed with any of the lists I've read but this is of course because all substances affect everybody in different ways.
For example in the last forum I read, everybody was agreeing that LSD had practically no danger potential, and while I personally have met plenty of people who have taken that particular drug every weekend for months and years and only had a good time, I took it twice and the last time was in June 2010. I'm still having therapy because of that particular experience and it almost destroyed me, but hey...that's just me! I also know a few people who have taken LSD and can't/won't talk about it because of similar experiences.
I thought that instead of the usual lists in which everybody disagrees with each other I would start a thread in which people could write the top ten substances that have affected them personally. Therefore I will not include Heroin on my own list because it's one of the few drugs I have never taken along with Crystal Meth.
I'm hoping that others will show their own lists so I can maybe put together a proper list based on actual first hand experience rather than just reading a few Wikipedia articles or 'Talk to Frank'
So...
My Top Ten Substances that have Negatively affected me from least horrendous to most:
10. Cocaine -I have had some nasty anxiety problems after insufflating which have always led me to drink a shitload of booze and take enormous amounts of Benzo's on top which makes it far far far more dangerous of course. It's a pretty good high if you get the right stuff but most of the time not really worth it for £60 per gram. It also drains the hell out of my bank account. Having said all that I have quit Cocaine now and feel no lasting problematic effects. I understand however that many other people's lives have been ruined by this drug so I'm not saying it's not a fucked-up-devil-drug, just hasn't been that way for me.
9. Cannabis - What's this!?!? Cannabis above Cocaine!!!?? For me yes. I know I know, Coke is far more dangerous in most ways but I myself have been negatively affected my Cannabis more than Coke. It's given me some seriously bad panic attacks that have lasted four hours and made me want to take my own life. Most of the time it has been friendly to me but occasionally it has turned psycho. I have a pretty active imagination and I find that people like me tend to suffer from the more psychedelic drugs more than most.
8. Oxycodone - My opiate tolerance was mild when I first tried Oxy. I was taking 250mg of Codeine a day at the time and Oxy boosted my tolerance up over a period of six weeks from 40mg a day to 200mg. When I went to the clinic to get back on Buprenorphine I had been off Oxycodone for 16 hours and was rated an 18/20 on the 'how badly is the patient withdrawing' chart. I was then prescribed 12mg of Bupe a day, six times more than I had when coming off Codeine. And I just know that if I hadn't gotten to the clinic when I did, I'd be taken at least 400mg by now, or be dead. There were a few times when I ended up sniffing a little too much and had breathing problems which goes to show that for me, overdose was not hugely unlikely. Fortunately I only took it for six weeks.
7. Ketamine - I had some absolutely savage trips/K-holes when I was at uni. They took their toll on my mental health quite a bit. After my 1st bad trip I was scared off. Then I discovered that drinking 1/2 a bottle of vodka before using made sure my trip was always good which of course led me to take more K, drink more Alcohol, and put myself at higher risk. For me this one is a nasty, nasty drug when it goes wrong, and it's weirdly addictive as well...
6. Buprenorphine - Bupe has never made me overdose or made me feel like shit, but when I was first prescribed it I was on 2mg and suddenly found the motivation to do everything including learn Russian language, run 3 half marathons and practice piano 4 hours a day. But when I came off, even though there were no psychical withdrawal symptoms, it left a huge depressing hole in my life. I didn't go into work for a week and spent that week finding dealers on the street who provided me with 16mg per day. I then spent the next 2 years sniffing it all day every day, at work especially. My colleagues would whisper 'you've got powder on your nose' and I was their damn supervisor! When it was hard to get hold of I lowered myself to crime, sold most of my stuff to pay for it and eventually came off cold turkey which was a fucked up ordeal that lasted weeks or maybe months. Now I'm back on 12mg prescribed and not looking forward to coming down.
5. Codeine - Yeh I know it's the weakest opiate on this list by far, but it was also the first opiate I ever took and I was already in a very dark place at the time. I began taking it daily, sometimes suicidally experimenting with the LD50. I committed many horrible sins to get more every day and nearly ruined my family's life. On top of all that I was always extracting it from Co-Codamol and I know I accidentally took very dangerous amounts of paracetamol many times. Stupid eh?!
4. Diazepam - I've had a 7 year addiction which is still ongoing. At my worst I used to take 120mg a day, ordering copious amounts of it from online vendors. I attempted to come off cold turkey last November and was found seizing in a puddle of vomit a week later. My parents rushed me to hospital where the doctors told me that I had come extremely close to death. Diazepam felt great when I first took it, but after a while my sleep began to get nasty with sleep paralysis, vivid nightmares and night terrors. It has also brought me close to overdose when combined with opiates and/or alcohol.
3. LSD - Last time took it was seven years ago. Two years ago was the first time since that I was able to even say it's name. I had trouble writing the acronym just now and if I'm reading a book and LSD is on the page somewhere my eyes jump right to it and my breathing gets weird. Never been so fucking terrified in my entire life. It gave me PTSD and extreme psychosis which lasted months. Plenty of people can get away with taking this, but me....I'd rather jump off a cliff than touch it again.
2. Mephedrone - Meph never seems to make anyone's list, even though Iv'e personally seem many lives smashed to pieces within a month because of this fucked up monstrous drug. It was the first drug I was ever addicted to; before I first took it I was mentally very strong, morally sound, and highly popular. I am not that person any more and Mephedrone is most of the reason. I can't even begin to describe what happened to me but at one point I went 11 days with no sleep. I was in my 3rd year at uni when I went too far with it and my parents had to drive down and literally save my life. I was then taken to a doctor who diagnosed me with half a dozen mental illnesses including psychosis, panic disorder, breathing phobia, PTSD and more...and I'd been fine before!!! This drug changed me from 'normal' to totally insane. Thank god the government banned it, just a shame they were a month late for me.
1. Alcohol - Without a doubt. It's bought me to the brink of insanity dozens of times. At my worst I've even drunk my own vomit and urine just to try and get the shite back into me. And the worst thing is there's a glass of cider sitting right next to me now. I don't really know where or how to start on how badly this drug has affected me, my friends, and most of all my family. And the availability is frightening. Also I seem to drink whenever I take anything else including opiates, benzos, coke, MDMA and everything in between.
For example in the last forum I read, everybody was agreeing that LSD had practically no danger potential, and while I personally have met plenty of people who have taken that particular drug every weekend for months and years and only had a good time, I took it twice and the last time was in June 2010. I'm still having therapy because of that particular experience and it almost destroyed me, but hey...that's just me! I also know a few people who have taken LSD and can't/won't talk about it because of similar experiences.
I thought that instead of the usual lists in which everybody disagrees with each other I would start a thread in which people could write the top ten substances that have affected them personally. Therefore I will not include Heroin on my own list because it's one of the few drugs I have never taken along with Crystal Meth.
I'm hoping that others will show their own lists so I can maybe put together a proper list based on actual first hand experience rather than just reading a few Wikipedia articles or 'Talk to Frank'
So...
My Top Ten Substances that have Negatively affected me from least horrendous to most:
10. Cocaine -I have had some nasty anxiety problems after insufflating which have always led me to drink a shitload of booze and take enormous amounts of Benzo's on top which makes it far far far more dangerous of course. It's a pretty good high if you get the right stuff but most of the time not really worth it for £60 per gram. It also drains the hell out of my bank account. Having said all that I have quit Cocaine now and feel no lasting problematic effects. I understand however that many other people's lives have been ruined by this drug so I'm not saying it's not a fucked-up-devil-drug, just hasn't been that way for me.
9. Cannabis - What's this!?!? Cannabis above Cocaine!!!?? For me yes. I know I know, Coke is far more dangerous in most ways but I myself have been negatively affected my Cannabis more than Coke. It's given me some seriously bad panic attacks that have lasted four hours and made me want to take my own life. Most of the time it has been friendly to me but occasionally it has turned psycho. I have a pretty active imagination and I find that people like me tend to suffer from the more psychedelic drugs more than most.
8. Oxycodone - My opiate tolerance was mild when I first tried Oxy. I was taking 250mg of Codeine a day at the time and Oxy boosted my tolerance up over a period of six weeks from 40mg a day to 200mg. When I went to the clinic to get back on Buprenorphine I had been off Oxycodone for 16 hours and was rated an 18/20 on the 'how badly is the patient withdrawing' chart. I was then prescribed 12mg of Bupe a day, six times more than I had when coming off Codeine. And I just know that if I hadn't gotten to the clinic when I did, I'd be taken at least 400mg by now, or be dead. There were a few times when I ended up sniffing a little too much and had breathing problems which goes to show that for me, overdose was not hugely unlikely. Fortunately I only took it for six weeks.
7. Ketamine - I had some absolutely savage trips/K-holes when I was at uni. They took their toll on my mental health quite a bit. After my 1st bad trip I was scared off. Then I discovered that drinking 1/2 a bottle of vodka before using made sure my trip was always good which of course led me to take more K, drink more Alcohol, and put myself at higher risk. For me this one is a nasty, nasty drug when it goes wrong, and it's weirdly addictive as well...
6. Buprenorphine - Bupe has never made me overdose or made me feel like shit, but when I was first prescribed it I was on 2mg and suddenly found the motivation to do everything including learn Russian language, run 3 half marathons and practice piano 4 hours a day. But when I came off, even though there were no psychical withdrawal symptoms, it left a huge depressing hole in my life. I didn't go into work for a week and spent that week finding dealers on the street who provided me with 16mg per day. I then spent the next 2 years sniffing it all day every day, at work especially. My colleagues would whisper 'you've got powder on your nose' and I was their damn supervisor! When it was hard to get hold of I lowered myself to crime, sold most of my stuff to pay for it and eventually came off cold turkey which was a fucked up ordeal that lasted weeks or maybe months. Now I'm back on 12mg prescribed and not looking forward to coming down.
5. Codeine - Yeh I know it's the weakest opiate on this list by far, but it was also the first opiate I ever took and I was already in a very dark place at the time. I began taking it daily, sometimes suicidally experimenting with the LD50. I committed many horrible sins to get more every day and nearly ruined my family's life. On top of all that I was always extracting it from Co-Codamol and I know I accidentally took very dangerous amounts of paracetamol many times. Stupid eh?!
4. Diazepam - I've had a 7 year addiction which is still ongoing. At my worst I used to take 120mg a day, ordering copious amounts of it from online vendors. I attempted to come off cold turkey last November and was found seizing in a puddle of vomit a week later. My parents rushed me to hospital where the doctors told me that I had come extremely close to death. Diazepam felt great when I first took it, but after a while my sleep began to get nasty with sleep paralysis, vivid nightmares and night terrors. It has also brought me close to overdose when combined with opiates and/or alcohol.
3. LSD - Last time took it was seven years ago. Two years ago was the first time since that I was able to even say it's name. I had trouble writing the acronym just now and if I'm reading a book and LSD is on the page somewhere my eyes jump right to it and my breathing gets weird. Never been so fucking terrified in my entire life. It gave me PTSD and extreme psychosis which lasted months. Plenty of people can get away with taking this, but me....I'd rather jump off a cliff than touch it again.
2. Mephedrone - Meph never seems to make anyone's list, even though Iv'e personally seem many lives smashed to pieces within a month because of this fucked up monstrous drug. It was the first drug I was ever addicted to; before I first took it I was mentally very strong, morally sound, and highly popular. I am not that person any more and Mephedrone is most of the reason. I can't even begin to describe what happened to me but at one point I went 11 days with no sleep. I was in my 3rd year at uni when I went too far with it and my parents had to drive down and literally save my life. I was then taken to a doctor who diagnosed me with half a dozen mental illnesses including psychosis, panic disorder, breathing phobia, PTSD and more...and I'd been fine before!!! This drug changed me from 'normal' to totally insane. Thank god the government banned it, just a shame they were a month late for me.
1. Alcohol - Without a doubt. It's bought me to the brink of insanity dozens of times. At my worst I've even drunk my own vomit and urine just to try and get the shite back into me. And the worst thing is there's a glass of cider sitting right next to me now. I don't really know where or how to start on how badly this drug has affected me, my friends, and most of all my family. And the availability is frightening. Also I seem to drink whenever I take anything else including opiates, benzos, coke, MDMA and everything in between.
