She said it was basically till my brain decides to start doing things the way it should. Right now I am massively wired. Not at all what I expected. During the taper it was the opposite I felt mostly down. I actually feel no desire for morphine. Not Hungry. etc. Once I was completely off if flipped 180.That's great news, R13. Do you know how long you'll be on the subs?
I'm sorry, I don't understand what you're staying with the analgesia of the pain meds. Are you saying you aren't getting relief from morphine but are from buprenorphine now, and that is what bugs you? For some reason my mind isn't working right at the moment.
The reason something like buprenorphine is better for periods of stabilization, which is what she sounds like she was referring to, because its long half-life helps keep a more consistent level of it in your system, compared to a short acting opioid like morphine.
Coupled with a very slow, comfortable taper, it allows your body to adjust more easily and transition more seamlessly into early recovery than it would be with the kind of shock to the system that can come after detoxing from a significant, long standing habit.
But if you also deal with pain issues and need meds, something like methadone or morphine would be preferable to buprenorphine. If necessary, it is at least possible to do what you're suggesting with the morphine instead of buprenorphine (you'll need to exercise a little more due diligence and care, but it's certainly possible).
Really glad to hear the worst is behind you. Do you have thoughts about next steps? Acute withdrawal is the worst. But the next couple months are likely to be challenging. Probably worth thinking about how to ride out cravings, and better yet, how to try minimizing them.
Lack of craving for morphine...interesting. Well, that's awesome. Certainly will make life easier than it otherwise might be.
Is your pain something you'll be living with on an ongoing basis?