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Greenlighter
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- May 5, 2017
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Hello everyone. This is my first post although I have been around this and many other communities in similar veins for a long time. I have an extensive drug use history ~ I wrote a list of the chemicals I have done that I can remember and hit 110. The list is currently posted up on my wall to remind myself I have done enough.
I have been to rehab 4 times in the last year (and a 2 week stint of bouncing around mental institutions) after a massive overdose and trying to get clean. I had accidentally consumed 50g of dissociative and had to cold turkey detox phenibut/diclazepam/kratom in a mental ward. But... Every time like clockwork, I make it to a month clean, and I relapse. I simply feel I flat out cannot function without chemical assistance. I feel a deep, deep pain in my body to be entirely clean and abstaining. After watching myself throw everything I had into the fire yet again, at the risk of losing my only place to go and relapsing again just to feel OK I decided it was time to look into chemical maintenance therapy. I decided to go on suboxone rather than methadone because of it's partial agonist property.
I still go to meetings every day.
I found myself a doctor and I was put on 8mg 3x a day. I am very aware that so many people advocate 2mg doses rather than anything especially over 4mg. I also am aware that one should be able to go with dosing once a day, not multiple times a day.
But I know there are always exceptions to opinion and so I wanted to ask if I could dose even more often, at smaller doses. I only feel relief from the suboxone for a couple of hours. I do not go into withdrawal or anything, but I start to feel edgy, anxious/depressed and negative/lost again after a few hours of a dose.
I was wondering instead of dosing 8mg 3x a day, if I could dose 4mg 6x a day. Would the doses lose total effectiveness, or would they still be noticeably active?
So far suboxone has felt like a life saver. I do not feel intoxicated, I feel OK. Maybe I can describe it for me like diet kratom. I do not get strong effects from the medicine, and euphoria is not there. But I feel centered, strong, willing to take on life again. I feel like what I always imagined normal people to feel like. I will likely be seeking 'permanent' (long term) maintenance rather than a taper.
Anyway ~ I am looking forward to what people think about the odd dosing regimen.
Thank you.
I have been to rehab 4 times in the last year (and a 2 week stint of bouncing around mental institutions) after a massive overdose and trying to get clean. I had accidentally consumed 50g of dissociative and had to cold turkey detox phenibut/diclazepam/kratom in a mental ward. But... Every time like clockwork, I make it to a month clean, and I relapse. I simply feel I flat out cannot function without chemical assistance. I feel a deep, deep pain in my body to be entirely clean and abstaining. After watching myself throw everything I had into the fire yet again, at the risk of losing my only place to go and relapsing again just to feel OK I decided it was time to look into chemical maintenance therapy. I decided to go on suboxone rather than methadone because of it's partial agonist property.
I still go to meetings every day.
I found myself a doctor and I was put on 8mg 3x a day. I am very aware that so many people advocate 2mg doses rather than anything especially over 4mg. I also am aware that one should be able to go with dosing once a day, not multiple times a day.
But I know there are always exceptions to opinion and so I wanted to ask if I could dose even more often, at smaller doses. I only feel relief from the suboxone for a couple of hours. I do not go into withdrawal or anything, but I start to feel edgy, anxious/depressed and negative/lost again after a few hours of a dose.
I was wondering instead of dosing 8mg 3x a day, if I could dose 4mg 6x a day. Would the doses lose total effectiveness, or would they still be noticeably active?
So far suboxone has felt like a life saver. I do not feel intoxicated, I feel OK. Maybe I can describe it for me like diet kratom. I do not get strong effects from the medicine, and euphoria is not there. But I feel centered, strong, willing to take on life again. I feel like what I always imagined normal people to feel like. I will likely be seeking 'permanent' (long term) maintenance rather than a taper.
Anyway ~ I am looking forward to what people think about the odd dosing regimen.
Thank you.
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