So I've been working less at the deli lately and doing more landscaping work instead because it pays more, but it's all under the table. And I get the feeling that people are worried if I have a large amount of cash at once, that I would do something dumb with it.
idk, id never turn down a better paying job just because I don't feel comfortable taking cash. I feel very comfortable actually, I love getting paid under the table.
Sometimes I just wish people could get an idea of where my head is at. I understand the worry, but honestly, if I really wanted to get high that bad I would have been doing it by now. Christ, I did shoot heroin not that long ago just to remember what the process felt like. Of course it was enjoyable, but I couldn't even function really and felt lethargic the next day.
the desire to use just isn't really there anymore.
but, at the same time, if I had a car I'd probably have gotten high more often. Idk man, it's like I'm moving on with life and everything but every once and a while a little heroin Memberberry comes up and goes
"meeember when all of your problems disappeared in a matter of seconds?"
yeah, but a whole new set of problems just pop up. And eventually all of your original problems come back. So now you got double the problems. Solution? Double the heroin!
Sounds like a good plan
shit