Im in a horrible crisis...need help. I did the most ignorant bullshit, Im now finding out, in the world. I ran a 3 yr cycle of test and tren from 38 yrs old until 41. Was just fucking stupid, so please no bashing, Im paying a horrible price...its ruined my life. It's been 20 months that I have been battling horrible depression, anxiety...premature aging, impotence, no libido...starting to get diabetic symptoms, no blood flow to genitals...penile and testicular atrophy...color changes to my penis head...vein changes...color changes to my skin...old looking skin. I haven't been able to function. I stopped cold turkey after my fiance left me and lost a job....ive been unemployed for over a year...am broke, no insurance...think of suicide everyday this situation is so bad....no pct when I came off, which not sure if it would've helped...can anybody tell me anything good...looking for genetic freak's opinion.
Hi There sorry to hear of your current predicament.. Being familiar with trenbolone might I suggest some of your symptoms could likely be depression caused by the termination of your past relationship, and subsequent unemployment, as opposed to blaming it all on tren'..
I might assume your current mental status is responsible for poor dietary choices which might account for at least several significant negative health effects you speak of..
We've all run long cycles without major issue, (personally I have run cycles and stopped cold turkey for 12 years without issue other than weight loss, which always comes back on cycle)..
I think we've provided enough evidence here to show PCT might not be optimal for return of testicular function, and that on-cycle protection might be of more benefit, but we are always learning with new research being presented all the time.. We can't hold ourselves responsible for not being up to date on all current research, we are all learning here..
Shit happens sometimes, we just have to learn to deal with it and not allow difficult situations to affect our life to such an extent that we get depressed..
You need to find a way to turn your life around, small steps to start with until you manage to get your life on track..
Exercise has been proven to reduce depression, get out for regular walks (if you can't afford gym), manage what finance you do have to eat healthy fresh foods (which contain the precursors for hormones, elevated mood, cognition, healthier skin etc).. fresh fish, veggies, berries, nuts seeds, green tea ...
Make yourself some new friends, get out more, join clubs, volunteer organizations (anything for human contact)..
The only person that can turn your life around is you, sit down and think how you can best do this, and make a start today.. Remember we are here to help..
Goodluck..