the benzo paradox

[smokedup]

Everytime, without fail, i feel a paradoxical reaction where i feel speedy, all there, social enigma. Charismatic, aware of my surroundings, accessing higher vocabulary. Its strange, the doses i take are outrages WITH alcohol and i absolutely love it. Does anyone experience this energetic, euphoric, charged to the eyeballs feeling? Even with hypnotics, i swear i would need elephant tranqs to get me down. strange as fuck mental chemistry.