thanks simco, I do feel somewhat proud of the difference between myself now and this time last year. But only to a certain extent, since this is what I really should have been doing all along.
I was also living with my grandparents and my aunt who was also a drug addict. My grandfather basically would just worry about my grandmother (who passed away in November) and that left me to my own devices. My parents are pretty hands off when it comes to telling me what I should or shouldnt do and my brother moved out of that house in late October of 2015 so for a solid year and a half I was basically just a full time junkie who would go from job to job for a week or two, get a paycheck, have pretty much everyone I worked with realize I was a junky, and promptly move on to the next job.
its hard sometimes because I still work in the same area that my grandparents house is in and it brings back a lot of shitty memories. And some random memories as well
thats why I keep thinking the best course of action for me might be to just move to California. Fuck school, fuck working in a deli, fuck Pennsylvania, I should just go.
Getting back to the "100% sure I will be able to do it" bit from the last post, that is kind of the reason I would just want to go. If I'm as smart as I say I am, I'll figure it the fuck out.
I have a little bit of money saved up that I was going to spend on a car but I might just save it for if I do decide to go west. Idk, I just need to do something different. I love Philadelphia sports teams but the actual city itself can get bent, seriously. Philly sucks. The only reason people from Philly talk shit on everywhere else is because our city actually is pretty sad to live in.
The closest beach requires you to go to New Jersey and the water is a nice greenish brown color anyway.
The three major themes are beer hipsters, open air drug selling, and poverty. Not a huge fan of all 3 of those.
Outside of the occasional 70 degree and sunny day in April/May or September/October, the weather is usually either way too cold or way too hot.
I dont really go skiing or snowboarding so the mountains dont really appeal to me and its not like theyre "close" anyway
marijuana is still illegal, they havent even enacted the medical program yet. The bill for MMJ passed, but apparently it takes 2 years to do fucking anything in govt
Idk, im glad I grew up here, and it helped me become the person I am today, but I feel like its time to move on. The only positive thing I can honestly say growing up here helped me with is keeping it real. And I dont exactly love that saying but its really the only way I can describe it. You have to keep it real because the reality sucks and hits you across the face each and every day.
Oh and hating on things, I can be a real good hater. Oh, youre having a good day? Well guess what? Im not, and youre about to not be either because...
lol, two quality traits Ill tell ya. a hater who keeps its real. because thats what people want to hear all the time.
get me out of here!