seanpaulsteak
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[FONT=verdana, arial, sans-serif]I've been doing heroin for about a year off and on. The last
four months it has been a heavy habit. Roughly 20-40$ a day. I've felt so trapped in the insidious addiction cycle. I've been able to quit before, but only for about a week. Despite all the negative consequences, I still give into the cravings. The past year I've probably spent well over 5 grand, probably more. The physical withdrawal is insanely shitty and uncomfortable, but I've been able to get through on a few different occasions, but I can't cope with the emotional problems that come whenever I try to quit. I usually smoke, I have IV'd on a few different occasions for a few days each time. I recently shot into an artery and had massive swelling on my arm and intense pain like pins and needles in my hand. Never going to IV again and I wish I could say I'm never doing heroin again. I can't. I feel trapped in this addiction. Most of my relationships with people, especially family have been damaged. I spend everything I get on black tar, I'm behind on all my bills. I've even been caught buying drugs by the police a few months ago, yet I still find myself downtown in the hood to buy heroin. I guess my question is how do I battle the cravings and deal with the emotional shit show that comes when trying to quit. Any advice would be great. I just want my life back and have it not centered around the heroin, the devil. It's possession. I don't know how's to break the cycle.[/FONT]
four months it has been a heavy habit. Roughly 20-40$ a day. I've felt so trapped in the insidious addiction cycle. I've been able to quit before, but only for about a week. Despite all the negative consequences, I still give into the cravings. The past year I've probably spent well over 5 grand, probably more. The physical withdrawal is insanely shitty and uncomfortable, but I've been able to get through on a few different occasions, but I can't cope with the emotional problems that come whenever I try to quit. I usually smoke, I have IV'd on a few different occasions for a few days each time. I recently shot into an artery and had massive swelling on my arm and intense pain like pins and needles in my hand. Never going to IV again and I wish I could say I'm never doing heroin again. I can't. I feel trapped in this addiction. Most of my relationships with people, especially family have been damaged. I spend everything I get on black tar, I'm behind on all my bills. I've even been caught buying drugs by the police a few months ago, yet I still find myself downtown in the hood to buy heroin. I guess my question is how do I battle the cravings and deal with the emotional shit show that comes when trying to quit. Any advice would be great. I just want my life back and have it not centered around the heroin, the devil. It's possession. I don't know how's to break the cycle.[/FONT]