Sim, don't worry at all, I didn't take any negative connotations from your replies and advice. I've read through tons of your prior posts and I hope you are doing as well as possible now. It sounds like we all need each other in times like these.
SK, thanks for checking in, are you feeling better today. I'm 7 days clean as of tomorrow, I could kick myself though because if I hadn't had that quick lapse, I'd be close to 3 weeks. Onward and upward though, no dwelling on the mistake.
I made myself go for a 3 mile walk/jog today, got some juices flowing and it's AMAZING to be able to able to breathe freely. That was probably the worst physical effects of the opiates, my lungs were full of fluid and green shit. The first week I was coughing it all up every single day. It's much better now. I joined a gym today as well. One of the best things I've read on BL is to wait out cravings, even if it's just 15 minutes. THEY WILL AND DO PASS. Looking to get to a meeting soon. I have a good friend that is also trying to get off the junk but seems to be struggling more than I am unfortunately. He's quit for over a year before, but is back to square one now. Today will be two days clean for him. I'm not really sure what to do in this situation. I want to do it together because I know it will help him (and hopefully both of us). However, if he keeps cracking then I might have to cut ties from him for a while. What do y'all think?
It's funny how about 3mi feels just about right to me when it comes to trail running/jogging/hiking myself
In terms of yourself, you are doing great. You're in early recovery, so for now just focus on taking care of yourself and your body-mind's needs (getting enough sleep, healthy diet, aerobic exercise, etc). For myself, and most people I know, the trick seems to lay more in the struggle to establish health habits during those "fresh" first 90 days than it does in terms of struggling with cravings. It's great your going to meetings, having a support group IRL is an essential piece of the puzzle.
You can't be there for your friend if you aren't able to take care of yourself. That is the simple (if hard) reality. Making you and your recovery, whatever it means, the priority should be the focus IMO. First you need to demonstrate to yourself you can take care of your own self before moving on to being. It's a lot harder to take care of one's own needs when one is taking care of someone else's need instead. You get the idea.
It's great to have friend in recovery, especially early in the game - especially GOOD friends. But when they were people we have used with or whatever in the past, or if they have their own issues they are struggling with in terms of addiction and/or mental health, these individuals need their own support. Generally speaking the advice given is that as you are early in your own recovery OP, you aren't really healthy enough to be able to effectively care for both yourself and another person at this time. In your case, who knows, it always depends.
You've clearly a really good head on your shoulders. I enjoyed reading that wall of text up there. I'd suggest providing support for your friend by setting a good example in order for you to keep your options open and work on your own self for the foreseeable future.
What are your thoughts about moving forward with your formal recovery and the situation with your job? Formal treatment now may in fact be your best bet given your present (if you want to collect unemployment/disability, etc, that is), but it is of course up to you (although it is a shame you've rules out the more effective treatments for folks like us already).
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