P0kemama
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8 days clean from all opiates. Withdrawals still rough, I will admit. Yesterday was a very bad day, but I survived. I came off an oxymorphone ER sniffing habit and could not taper very well, so did so for three weeks and then jumped off.
Feeling ill and shaky right now... I will update more later.
I have used opiates, this time around, for about three years. I get all my meds through my pain management doctor, and did not have any sources on the street, so could not add to my supply. I was able to work on taper after taper, some being documented here on BL, as long as I was prescribed IR oxycodone. Once I was told that I would have to add an extended release medication when I complained that 3 oxy's a day were not holding back the pain, I began to go down a slippery slope.
First I was prescribed morphine. I hated it. If only I would have stockpiled them as I did the first month, I would be ok today. Instead, as i ran short of oxycodone, I did take the morphine.
I told my doctor it upset my stomach, b/c I could not catch a buzz. I was then prescribed oxycontin, but insurance didn't cover it and it was way expensive.
So, I did some research, and saw my insurance covered oxymorphone, generic Opana. And it was easy to defeat the ER coating, I just had to crush it.
I had read that the oral bioavailability was only 10%, but sniffing it... well it raised it to 30-40%.
It was great! Finally, I had a drug that worked like oxycodone did in the beginning.
However, tolerance builds really fast, and then my doctor got shut down by the state licensing dept. I had to scramble to find another doctor... fast!
That marked the beginning of the end. I could not stand being home all the time so I could sniff. I was going into withdrawals, lightly, each month. Oxycodone no longer worked... I ruined my tolerance. So, I started a tapering thread on The Dark Side, and failed time after time.
As I practiced tapering, I did not realize I was building strength to eventually do a very rapid taper.
I cut my dose by 75% and went into full blown withdrawals, for nine days. I hung out at a 25% dose for several days, but it would not hold me very well at all. So, I jumped off 8 days ago. It was a rough week, but so worth it!
I have no urge to use at all, despite still being in withdrawal.
I am so done with opioids and will keep this journal to garner support and to remember to stay quit.
Feeling ill and shaky right now... I will update more later.
I have used opiates, this time around, for about three years. I get all my meds through my pain management doctor, and did not have any sources on the street, so could not add to my supply. I was able to work on taper after taper, some being documented here on BL, as long as I was prescribed IR oxycodone. Once I was told that I would have to add an extended release medication when I complained that 3 oxy's a day were not holding back the pain, I began to go down a slippery slope.
First I was prescribed morphine. I hated it. If only I would have stockpiled them as I did the first month, I would be ok today. Instead, as i ran short of oxycodone, I did take the morphine.
I told my doctor it upset my stomach, b/c I could not catch a buzz. I was then prescribed oxycontin, but insurance didn't cover it and it was way expensive.
So, I did some research, and saw my insurance covered oxymorphone, generic Opana. And it was easy to defeat the ER coating, I just had to crush it.
I had read that the oral bioavailability was only 10%, but sniffing it... well it raised it to 30-40%.
It was great! Finally, I had a drug that worked like oxycodone did in the beginning.
However, tolerance builds really fast, and then my doctor got shut down by the state licensing dept. I had to scramble to find another doctor... fast!
That marked the beginning of the end. I could not stand being home all the time so I could sniff. I was going into withdrawals, lightly, each month. Oxycodone no longer worked... I ruined my tolerance. So, I started a tapering thread on The Dark Side, and failed time after time.
As I practiced tapering, I did not realize I was building strength to eventually do a very rapid taper.
I cut my dose by 75% and went into full blown withdrawals, for nine days. I hung out at a 25% dose for several days, but it would not hold me very well at all. So, I jumped off 8 days ago. It was a rough week, but so worth it!
I have no urge to use at all, despite still being in withdrawal.
I am so done with opioids and will keep this journal to garner support and to remember to stay quit.
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