"Well just go to school!"
fuck your school. I can't make myself want to go to school.
As funny and sad as this sounds, I think I'm too good for school. Why should I have to go to school to prove that I can do stuff I already know I can do?
put me in any job for a week and see if I'm not doing it just fine by the end. I'm not even trying to continue this narcissistic posting style but I don't give a fuck
Im too smart to go to school. Im either going to figure something out with what to do with my life soon, while showing flashes of positive behavior and insight, or I'm just going to go back to being a drug addict and say the reason I didn't achieve anything is because I never actually tried
its a built in excuse for this earth shattering revelation I might be forced into where I realize I'm not, in actuality, that intelligent. Where I have to admit that I'm not really good at much of anything except giving excuses for why things turn out the way they turn out. Im real good at that. I'll tell you my flaws all day, just like I'll tell you what I'm good at all day. One of the things I'm good at is telling you what my flaws are
im an honest person at heart, and sometimes the own truth about your life hurts so drugs are a good fucking band aid
I don't think most people innately know what they want in a lifelong career, they just thumb through the university programs / trade schools / do what their parents did / work their way up from an entry level job... make a decision, and most importantly stick to it without complaint.
2 guys from my graduating class went straight into electrical work, stuck to it, 1 is now a journeyman, the other is a foreman (by the time they hit 25).
I've been paralyzed with indecision and have ho-hum'ed ever since graduating high school. Went to a decent uni for a year and a half, got terrible grades and dropped out despite being (what I believe to be) reasonably intelligent, worked a bunch of random jobs, went to college to get a diploma, used that diploma in a line of work, I've since stopped that due to poor health and looking to do something else. I just can't seem to stick to anything long term... depression and suicidal ideation doesn't help.
In my case, prolonged recreational opiate use / addiction led to a decreased ability to work towards long-term goals. "Why can't I have my degree now? Why do I have to study all this crap? This is too much work for today, I'm just going to get high instead. I'll do this tomorrow."
The first day of uni, this professor told our entire class of 200+ students, "the reason you are here is not because you're smarter than the people who went to x university or college, it's because you worked harder. Everyone has the ability to come to this school, you just have to be willing to put in the work."