Man, Hollow Crown is their best album hands down. Love it. Early Grave, Follow the Water, Elegance are so good.
Took a quarter blotter of al-lad last night and I got hit hard by it somehow. I was having revelations and a bit of a body load (I'm assuming because I'm still getting clean, I normally don't have nausea or anything). I was even seeing colours and having open eye visuals.
I know what I want out of life now. My career path is not working out, because I am just not interested in being a corporate slave. I will find a job somewhere chill in the meantime while devoting my life and soul to music. I have been practicing 4 hours a day still but it needs to be more. I realized that absolutely everything in my life leading up to this point could be interpreted as preparing me for starting my own hardcore music band. I realized this on the blotter last night. I have found my calling, and I feel really good today. My talent is for creating music. I think I'm 18 days clean today so that's pretty good. Got out for a long walk and it's crazy how I normally block the world out and it was like seeing it for the first time. Trippy stuff.