Sorry if this seems like a stupid question! But it's important if I get some better insight.
Also English isn't my first language so sorry for any grammatical errors.
I first tried mdma back on New Year's Eve of 2017, bombed it and was a wonderful experience. I didn't really get a bad comedown, I just felt irritated but had a very positive afterglow for a couple of days that didn't interfere with my mood.
I did it again a bang on two weeks later (sniffed it this time, what a waste) but this time I had FAR too much and didn't remember a thing, all I remember is hallucinating vividly when I closed my eyes and randomly feeling quite sweaty (which led me to taking long breaks outside.)
I was ok for a day after, but I had fairly severe panic attacks for a couple of days starting on Tuesday and eventually ending on Friday. On the Tuesday it was so severe I took myself to A&E to get my blood pressure checked. Thankfully I was fine, but they warned me that the next few days would be a bit rough as well.
I took some 5-HTP which settled my mood quite well, but a little bit of anxiety did shine through (especially on public transport where it was noisy and crowded.)
So, it's the 13th of February. I haven't taken MDMA at all since the last time, also I feel mentally and physically great. I'm due to go to a house party with my close friends on the 25th, so taking MDMA again would be in my best interest. However, I remembered when I used to smoke weed frequently and get panic attacks. Even smoking a little bit in a positive environment would make me skitz out because of the panic attacks I used to have when I stopped smoking it.
Would I be ok to take MDMA again? Or is it a recipie for a bad time?
Also English isn't my first language so sorry for any grammatical errors.
I first tried mdma back on New Year's Eve of 2017, bombed it and was a wonderful experience. I didn't really get a bad comedown, I just felt irritated but had a very positive afterglow for a couple of days that didn't interfere with my mood.
I did it again a bang on two weeks later (sniffed it this time, what a waste) but this time I had FAR too much and didn't remember a thing, all I remember is hallucinating vividly when I closed my eyes and randomly feeling quite sweaty (which led me to taking long breaks outside.)
I was ok for a day after, but I had fairly severe panic attacks for a couple of days starting on Tuesday and eventually ending on Friday. On the Tuesday it was so severe I took myself to A&E to get my blood pressure checked. Thankfully I was fine, but they warned me that the next few days would be a bit rough as well.
I took some 5-HTP which settled my mood quite well, but a little bit of anxiety did shine through (especially on public transport where it was noisy and crowded.)
So, it's the 13th of February. I haven't taken MDMA at all since the last time, also I feel mentally and physically great. I'm due to go to a house party with my close friends on the 25th, so taking MDMA again would be in my best interest. However, I remembered when I used to smoke weed frequently and get panic attacks. Even smoking a little bit in a positive environment would make me skitz out because of the panic attacks I used to have when I stopped smoking it.
Would I be ok to take MDMA again? Or is it a recipie for a bad time?