Nice.
Yes life indeed comes in waves. During the bad parts you really can't see out of them sometimes. Brains are weird. Is it brains or that essence of consciousness that we can't explain with science that makes brains something more than just a computer? That thing that is the reason the word "god" exists. The awareness behind the mechanics. In other words, is it humans (and maybe other specific creatures) that have such a tendency to be absolutely enslaved to our emotions and prone to fits of depression and what have you? Or is that a characteristic of the "experiencer" itself (that thing we all are)? Does there exist a race of intelligent beings who feels no emotion and thus are not subject to the roller coaster of life as an emotional creature? I suppose the limbic system evolved in mammals here on Earth, who's to say that life couldn't have evolved somewhere without that at all? Or maybe it's a base-line feature of intelligence to feel something regarding your experience? I tend to think not since our brains are physical things and we know there are regions of that physical structure responsible for certain things such as emotion. Wow, life is so crazy. Existence could be "like" literally anything, because the physical architecture of the being that is aware entirely or nearly entirely either determines or limits the subjective experience of that creature. Even our memories are all stored in physical matter in our brains. What would we be without our memories? Human, yes, but would be have the same sort of self identity?
It's either too late for me to be up thinking, or just late enough, I can't tell.
I was just listening to the tracks from tonight's practice. Overall probably the best we've ever had, it was wonderful. I had an idea for a jam format at the end of a song, transitioning over 5-7 minutes into a new song we've sort of played before but haven't worked out in our new 3-piece format. Well, I described my idea twice before we tried playing it, and not only did we play the main song nearly perfectly, but we executed the jam into the new song nearly perfectly. We're almost ready to start playing shows again finally (after splitting up as a 6-piece and also losing out bass player, so now as a 3-piece with me on keys/synth, and a guitar and drummer), and I'm so excited.
We've been practicing 3 days a week consistently and the work is really paying off. Feels good.
I finally feel like we're a really good band, we have a unique sound and the ability yo really play together at any time, whether one of our songs or full improv, and sound good. Can't tell you how good that feels.
Really helps that the dudes are some of my best friends.
